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hello :)
I keep trying to update and I never get a chance. My session with the therapist was awesome, I saw her again yesterday. I feel very comfortable with her and I'm glad I finally crossed this off my things to do list.
Things with Juny are up and down, but were really trying to work it out, I'm really trying this time around and I think there is progress. Its really hard because shes super analytical now, every thing I say, everything I do shes misinterpreting it and its upsetting that she won't trust me anymore but I understand. it just sucks that she feels this way now that I'm actually on my best behavior.
I didn't see Frank last week as he had food poisoning, but he's here now and last night we worked on Predisposed, which is a song I wrote three weeks ago. I think its my favorite one yet, which really raises the bar for any future songs I make.
These are the lyrics:
Drop your predisposed notions of me
I’ve carried this show on too long I can’t breathe
So cast all your stones down on me
I am exhausted of lying, I need to bleed
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
I know what I’ve done is considered a crime
So feed me your bread and pass me the wine
Cleanse me of my begotten sins
But that doesn’t mean I won’t do it again
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
We fight for our rightful possession of sovereignty
I won’t turn my gaze away and pretend that I can’t see
The ongoing struggle remains on the streets
Breaking the souls of my people who daily suffer defeat
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
I’ll be your Mary Magdalene
I’ll be your whore
I don’t want your forgiveness
Bring on the war
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
I had just read about the large increase in number of "corrective rapes" happening in Africa and I just got so angry! I also watched Milk that week and I was thinking about all the things that are soooo off right now plus on a personal note, the guilt trip I was getting, it just made me want to write something empowering... I hope this is what people get out of this song when they hear it. It has a flamenco / rock like feel to it :) Frank is an amazing help, he listens to what I want for my songs and makes it happen. That's an amazing connection to have, he's just great and were becoming great friends as well.
I'm waiting for Juny and Frank to get back, they went to pick up my new mixer :) I'm going to have a kick ass recording studio by the time I'm done here. Well, gotta run, Neos visting, I have to take him to get a hair cut.
I keep trying to update and I never get a chance. My session with the therapist was awesome, I saw her again yesterday. I feel very comfortable with her and I'm glad I finally crossed this off my things to do list.
Things with Juny are up and down, but were really trying to work it out, I'm really trying this time around and I think there is progress. Its really hard because shes super analytical now, every thing I say, everything I do shes misinterpreting it and its upsetting that she won't trust me anymore but I understand. it just sucks that she feels this way now that I'm actually on my best behavior.
I didn't see Frank last week as he had food poisoning, but he's here now and last night we worked on Predisposed, which is a song I wrote three weeks ago. I think its my favorite one yet, which really raises the bar for any future songs I make.
These are the lyrics:
Drop your predisposed notions of me
I’ve carried this show on too long I can’t breathe
So cast all your stones down on me
I am exhausted of lying, I need to bleed
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
I know what I’ve done is considered a crime
So feed me your bread and pass me the wine
Cleanse me of my begotten sins
But that doesn’t mean I won’t do it again
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
We fight for our rightful possession of sovereignty
I won’t turn my gaze away and pretend that I can’t see
The ongoing struggle remains on the streets
Breaking the souls of my people who daily suffer defeat
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
I’ll be your Mary Magdalene
I’ll be your whore
I don’t want your forgiveness
Bring on the war
I do not want to repent
I demand your respect
I had just read about the large increase in number of "corrective rapes" happening in Africa and I just got so angry! I also watched Milk that week and I was thinking about all the things that are soooo off right now plus on a personal note, the guilt trip I was getting, it just made me want to write something empowering... I hope this is what people get out of this song when they hear it. It has a flamenco / rock like feel to it :) Frank is an amazing help, he listens to what I want for my songs and makes it happen. That's an amazing connection to have, he's just great and were becoming great friends as well.
I'm waiting for Juny and Frank to get back, they went to pick up my new mixer :) I'm going to have a kick ass recording studio by the time I'm done here. Well, gotta run, Neos visting, I have to take him to get a hair cut.