The battle within.......
i feel so sick.....my throat is so sore, im freezing despite the heat, and i ache all over! i am told it is because of malnutrition. I thought fighting with drugs and alcohol and bipolar was tough. Well ya know what else is hard as shit. This constant battle i have with my food. I don't ever want to eat. The smell of it makes me sick. And when my mom finally forces me to eat it takes me hour(s) and then i just want to vomit everywhere! I almost threw up in the bath tub today after dinner. I hate this i hate this so much.
And ya know what else i hate the fact that so many people don't understand me! Especially matt. I love him so much and he hates me so much. and everyone just wants to use me......it sucks.....truly. i feel like such a whore.
And ya know what else i hate the fact that so many people don't understand me! Especially matt. I love him so much and he hates me so much. and everyone just wants to use me......it sucks.....truly. i feel like such a whore.