Here I Am
I never write anything good in here anymore.
Today seems to be another waste of a day. It's beautiful outside, like sevety degrees and yet I haven't done anything. I was supposed to do so much today but didn't. Last night I couldn't sleep. I was up till 3am just laying in bed listening the sounds of the night. I could not sleep for the life of me. I took 75mg of Seroquel and it did nothing. Last night was the first time I've taken meds in like a week. I thought that would knock me out but I guess I was wrong. It did nothing. When seven o'clock rolled around I was restless and my stomach hurt so I didn't go to my parents house I just staye din bed until 2. I was supposed to wake up early and go into NYC for the day to see Heidi but that all went to shit.I was also supposed to go to school at some point today and finish my FAFSA form for financial aid, but didn't do that either. I have no motivation lately. All I want to do is nothing. i also keep getting this tingly feeling in my feet. It sucks. I want to go back on the pump but i don't know when that will happen.I really want to drop out of college. I really don't like it. I tried it and hated it.Its safe to say I hate it more than high school. At least high school had a point to it. Ugh just thinking about it pisses me off.
The only good thing to happen to me lately would be getting the job at Family Aids. Its a secretary jobs but it pays good and if I work there long enough I'll be elegible for health insurance. That could really benifit me in the long run.
Thats enough complaining for now.
Today seems to be another waste of a day. It's beautiful outside, like sevety degrees and yet I haven't done anything. I was supposed to do so much today but didn't. Last night I couldn't sleep. I was up till 3am just laying in bed listening the sounds of the night. I could not sleep for the life of me. I took 75mg of Seroquel and it did nothing. Last night was the first time I've taken meds in like a week. I thought that would knock me out but I guess I was wrong. It did nothing. When seven o'clock rolled around I was restless and my stomach hurt so I didn't go to my parents house I just staye din bed until 2. I was supposed to wake up early and go into NYC for the day to see Heidi but that all went to shit.I was also supposed to go to school at some point today and finish my FAFSA form for financial aid, but didn't do that either. I have no motivation lately. All I want to do is nothing. i also keep getting this tingly feeling in my feet. It sucks. I want to go back on the pump but i don't know when that will happen.I really want to drop out of college. I really don't like it. I tried it and hated it.Its safe to say I hate it more than high school. At least high school had a point to it. Ugh just thinking about it pisses me off.
The only good thing to happen to me lately would be getting the job at Family Aids. Its a secretary jobs but it pays good and if I work there long enough I'll be elegible for health insurance. That could really benifit me in the long run.
Thats enough complaining for now.