Capitan
once again i find myself asking myself "what the hell am i doing here?"
I hate graphic deisign so why am i majoring in it?
I mean don't get me wrong i love the people here and im making friends but its been almost
two years and I still dont have an answer to my question.
This is all pointless to me. I dont want a carrer where i am sitting behind a computer
screen all day. I want a hands on job. something that sparks my interest.
and im tired of ending up in the hospital every other week.
yes once again Friday I was in the hospital.
This time it was because I was on the train and passed out from something.
All of a sudden boom! I'm on the ground.
they wanted to call am ambulance but i said i was fine.
When i got to Sayville train station i took a cab to Brookhaven.
They thought I had pnemonia then hypotermia. Turns out it was neither
"an infection" they always say. But they never say where they just pump me full of meds and send
me on my merry way.
Sunday was the Bowling tornament. My first with the school team. I had a lot of fun.
The kids on the team are really nice to me. And made me feel like I belonged.
It was cool to be social for a little while. I was beginning to forget what that
felt like.
Today I stayed in bed until 4:00pm.Just slept all day. Didn't go to work.
Tomorrow I have to go in the UPS and work for a little while but thats okay.
I like it there.
I wasnt even going to come into school today but Joe made me.
I feel like shitm my stomach keeps cramping up.
I finished my work early in class but what else is new. I always put in minimum effort and
pass because my teacher doesnt really care. I just do what he says and get on with it.
I really want to start saving money because I want to go visit sal again.
I miss him a lot.
And i really want a DDR mat for my PS2
Okay thats all for now.
BTW im still reading Crosses I didn't get very far at all with it. Hopefully
tonight I'll just polish off the whole thing.
<3
I hate graphic deisign so why am i majoring in it?
I mean don't get me wrong i love the people here and im making friends but its been almost
two years and I still dont have an answer to my question.
This is all pointless to me. I dont want a carrer where i am sitting behind a computer
screen all day. I want a hands on job. something that sparks my interest.
and im tired of ending up in the hospital every other week.
yes once again Friday I was in the hospital.
This time it was because I was on the train and passed out from something.
All of a sudden boom! I'm on the ground.
they wanted to call am ambulance but i said i was fine.
When i got to Sayville train station i took a cab to Brookhaven.
They thought I had pnemonia then hypotermia. Turns out it was neither
"an infection" they always say. But they never say where they just pump me full of meds and send
me on my merry way.
Sunday was the Bowling tornament. My first with the school team. I had a lot of fun.
The kids on the team are really nice to me. And made me feel like I belonged.
It was cool to be social for a little while. I was beginning to forget what that
felt like.
Today I stayed in bed until 4:00pm.Just slept all day. Didn't go to work.
Tomorrow I have to go in the UPS and work for a little while but thats okay.
I like it there.
I wasnt even going to come into school today but Joe made me.
I feel like shitm my stomach keeps cramping up.
I finished my work early in class but what else is new. I always put in minimum effort and
pass because my teacher doesnt really care. I just do what he says and get on with it.
I really want to start saving money because I want to go visit sal again.
I miss him a lot.
And i really want a DDR mat for my PS2
Okay thats all for now.
BTW im still reading Crosses I didn't get very far at all with it. Hopefully
tonight I'll just polish off the whole thing.
<3