Sinus infection to a cold...I don't get it!

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Ahh life is truly a maze to me at times even when in other moments it feels so figured out. I just want to know what it all means, but I know in the meantime I got to take up the present to the fullest and I do and I am. The other day I was thinking about my life a few years from now and I thought to myself, I definitely want to have a child, my own, to raise and to learn from the lessons of motherhood. I have never honestly considered being a mother until having had the opportunity to be around a lil one so often these days. I've learned the way they truly change your lives and I know I am only a spectator in this case and the challenges only accentuate once in the situation, but I feel I will be ready in time and not only that, but I think I would make a good mother. I would also feel as though I were missing out on a big part of life if I didn't take this opportunity. It would be a termendous challenge and one I don't see myself doing untill a few years, but still the thought excites me :) On another note, my sis is engaged and getting married in May! I am so excited for her, I will gain two nephews and a niece. I adore those kids and have so much fun with them! It is great that they are becoming officially part of the family. ooo and Domino too! I hope everything works out for my sister because she honestly deserves wonderful things in her life and I am glad lil Cati has brought that and so much more. I knew she was going to be a wonderful mother, but when you see her interact with the lil one and the way she plays with her and holds her and the way Cati looks at her and no one else goes to show she is one of the best mothers I have ever seen in my life.I hope one day I can be as good of a mother as she is or even close.On another note I keep wanting to get another dog for my mom as a gift. I found the most adorable black lab puppy the other day, but my aunts worry about my mom being able to care for it and I understand their worry, but I know it would make her so happy...we shall see. This Saturday I set up a football game with the fam. Jimbo,Ced, I, Angi, Carl, Tabi, Ricky and Wyatt....haha I love how a bunch of us are kids at heart no matter how old we are then I'm taking Tabi and the kids including Cati back to Aptos and spending the night to enjoy the niner game the following day. Ok now I am blabbing and must get back to work :) Life is good!

p.s I get to see my favorite student to tutor today yaya!