Random poems i have wrote over time.
Beep.
Why is it that it always takes that slap to make you change?
Why can you just change before the slap to avoid it?
If it wasnt for the snow.
If it wasnt for the chocolate.
If it wasnt for her cig.
If it wasnt for the dirt.
If it wasnt for cold.
If he didnt have to wait for the kids.
If he didnt want to get to her.
I dont know really i dont know him. but if one thing was off.
If i would have waited for a ride.
If i would have asked for one.
If i left earlier.
If i left later.
I would have not changed.
I would have not seen the headlights coming at me. Beep!
Her
The wonder behind your eyes.
The pain behind the skin.
I want to crawl.
I want to come in.
I will let you know me.
I will let you hold me.
There is many things i can't foresee.
There is many things you can be.
I
I need something. I want alot of things.
I have never let it be about me but maybe its time.
I have let years, moments and half a life time past.
I must discover myself.
I must live for myself.
I know people, I know the world.
I cant figure myself out.
I think its time.
No
I am so alone this is hell.
This is the hell i have built.
Why am i here?
Why do i not leave?
There is love that waits to hurt.
There is hurt that you wish to love.
How will know when you have never been taught.
How will you know when you are innocent.
Show me something.
Show me its real.
Tears
Damn these tears and there taste.
Damn these tears and there sting.
You have been numb.
You are awake.
Waking to love.
Waking to be alone.
Would it have been better to sleep?
Would it have been better not to love?
Let me sleep.
Let me die.
God i do not want that.
God i want to fight.
What gives me the right?
What will i do?
Make these tears stop.
Make me understand.
I give in i give up just please.... please..
Weakness
How can you?
I dont ask out of anger
because you dont make me feel that.
Or do i ask out of hate
because there is no room for that.
I dont ask to be nosie
because you share everything.... with me.
Or do i ask to be annoying
because i am not a child tugging on your pants.
I dont ask to judge
because i have never judged you or will.
Or do i ask to ridicule you
because I have never even thought of such a thing.
I dont ask to ignore the answer
because i am pleading for this answer.
Or do I ask to forget the answer
because you can not forget what changes your life.
This is my moment of being defenseless.
This is my moment of weakness.
I dont know how to ask for this because i have never done it before.
Yeah
I am tired and this is the last.
God i am tired.
Screw the bet there is no bet.
This is life and the last of it you hold on to.
How.
How?
How can you choice.
How can you love and choice that love if it hurts them.
How can you not choice love when it hurts them.
You want something for once you are tired of losing.
You dont care about yourself you are tired.
You will be lonely you know it well.
You slept it and lived it.
But how can you choice for them.
I just want what is right.
I want something.
God even the pain is enough.
Why is it that it always takes that slap to make you change?
Why can you just change before the slap to avoid it?
If it wasnt for the snow.
If it wasnt for the chocolate.
If it wasnt for her cig.
If it wasnt for the dirt.
If it wasnt for cold.
If he didnt have to wait for the kids.
If he didnt want to get to her.
I dont know really i dont know him. but if one thing was off.
If i would have waited for a ride.
If i would have asked for one.
If i left earlier.
If i left later.
I would have not changed.
I would have not seen the headlights coming at me. Beep!
Her
The wonder behind your eyes.
The pain behind the skin.
I want to crawl.
I want to come in.
I will let you know me.
I will let you hold me.
There is many things i can't foresee.
There is many things you can be.
I
I need something. I want alot of things.
I have never let it be about me but maybe its time.
I have let years, moments and half a life time past.
I must discover myself.
I must live for myself.
I know people, I know the world.
I cant figure myself out.
I think its time.
No
I am so alone this is hell.
This is the hell i have built.
Why am i here?
Why do i not leave?
There is love that waits to hurt.
There is hurt that you wish to love.
How will know when you have never been taught.
How will you know when you are innocent.
Show me something.
Show me its real.
Tears
Damn these tears and there taste.
Damn these tears and there sting.
You have been numb.
You are awake.
Waking to love.
Waking to be alone.
Would it have been better to sleep?
Would it have been better not to love?
Let me sleep.
Let me die.
God i do not want that.
God i want to fight.
What gives me the right?
What will i do?
Make these tears stop.
Make me understand.
I give in i give up just please.... please..
Weakness
How can you?
I dont ask out of anger
because you dont make me feel that.
Or do i ask out of hate
because there is no room for that.
I dont ask to be nosie
because you share everything.... with me.
Or do i ask to be annoying
because i am not a child tugging on your pants.
I dont ask to judge
because i have never judged you or will.
Or do i ask to ridicule you
because I have never even thought of such a thing.
I dont ask to ignore the answer
because i am pleading for this answer.
Or do I ask to forget the answer
because you can not forget what changes your life.
This is my moment of being defenseless.
This is my moment of weakness.
I dont know how to ask for this because i have never done it before.
Yeah
I am tired and this is the last.
God i am tired.
Screw the bet there is no bet.
This is life and the last of it you hold on to.
How.
How?
How can you choice.
How can you love and choice that love if it hurts them.
How can you not choice love when it hurts them.
You want something for once you are tired of losing.
You dont care about yourself you are tired.
You will be lonely you know it well.
You slept it and lived it.
But how can you choice for them.
I just want what is right.
I want something.
God even the pain is enough.