Trying not to make someone else's mistakes
xTheFearInsidex: So walk away from the places that you've come to call home Leave them and this wreck behind, learn to breath on your own For beneath a failed routine there must be a new song And I will watch you sing even though you're gone So walk away to keep yourself safe, where no one will be pressuring you to smile And I'll miss you when you're gone And we'll miss you when you're walking away And I'm still listening for that voice, to hear you sing A sign that you're ok Because I miss you now Because now I'm singing too, screaming at the top of my lungs " You look so better off, you look so better off standing strong"
He is definitely my best friend for a reason. Thank you so much Blake, You always know the right things to say to make me feel like myself again.
So Mammoth was awesome. I couldnt have taken anyone better .... me and Carleen had a blast. Lots of hiking but also lots of relaxing by the pool and the lake. We met a few cool people (monkey boy, retard, karl, that weird girl with the wrid name, LUA, and bro) and had some freaking awesome times. (ghost and fat person in front of the window) =). I had a lot of time to think up there just sitting on the balcony of the hotel underneath the stars .... and I now know theres a few things in my life that I have to change. I have to do these things to make myself happy. I havent been completely happy in a while so its about time. I have a few good friends who have stuck by my side no matter what and a few who could honestly care less. But I want to say thank you to those few friends who have stuck by my side through it all ( Blake, Aaron, John, Rich, Travis, Stephen, David, Lauren, Kaydie, Clare, Carleen) to name a few. It means the world to me that you guys have been there. Today I was talking to Colby and he asked me "Isnt high school supposed to be the time of your life?" and I realized ... these are the times of my life. This is the one chance I get to live life for what it is without worries and regrets. This is high school ..... the good ole days everyone always talks about. The days we'll remember forever. I wont let one bad thing ruin my "good ole days". When that one thing was obviously not what I once thought it was. I used to think that one thing was my life, my world, but I know now that it was nothing, a mistake. So I thank you for the scars ..... thank you for the tears ..... thank you for the good ole days. B r e a k i n g Hearts Has Never Looked So Cool.
Its time for life to be good again, and Im willing to do whatever it takes to make it that way. To everyone who has stood by my side .... i want to say thank you because nothing has ever meant more. Things are changing ..... but change can be good. Im fixing the wrongs, and adjusting the rights.
I couldnt have thought of a worse way for it to end.
I got a random call from a Justin Murphy today ............ does anyone happen to know who he is because I sure have no idea.