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Today I got home from Las Vegas ... it was an awesome trip. I really enjoyed getting to spend some time with Parker. Hes a great friend. Thanks for going with Parker. = ). We sure made some damn good memories. *rock stars!* *you kids hitting it up ... yeaya!* *joni* *grandpa screaming in his sleep* *moms 4:20 note* .... I could go on forever. lol. It was definitely good to get away for a while and I learned a lot about myself and life on this trip. I realized that the past is in the past and I cant fuel my life with things that happened or could happened. I have to live in the present ... now ... its all that matters. I was holding onto things and people in my past and Ive just realized that I have to get over those things. Ofcourse I will never get over Koltons death and I dont expect myself to. But other things ... I can control, and I will. I always say Ill get over it this time .... but now ... Im actually going to do something about it. No matter what I say and no matter what I feel, whats done is done and theres nothing I can do to change that ... and there never will be. I thought this would be heartbreaking but I realized ... its better this way. = ). Im happy to be home and for once ... Im just plain happy.
Today after I got home I sat around and talked to Nathan and David on the phone for a while, then talked on here, then talked to Nathan again. I ended up meeting Rich and Steve at David's but his mom didnt want us all there so we headed up to Rich's for the night. Nathan was supposed to come but he couldnt make it. = (. We all hung out there for a while, I straightened Davids hair!! =). That was fun except I burnt my finger and his ear. lol. sorry David. = (. We watched "We were soldiers" (sad movie) and had some good laughs and some damn good talks. It was a great night just being back at home and with some of my best friends in the world. I missed that. Talked to Jimmy while I was at Rich's .... hes a very cool kid. =). Now Im sitting here at home, tired as hell and ready to sleep in my own bed. I missed you all and Im so glad to be home. <333