depression
So I havent updated in a while .....
Aarons house on Saturday was awesome like always ... I definitely love my friends. The band practiced (The Undead)... that was great cuz they havent in a long time. Theyre awesome. = ). Then we all hung out and had a great time. Sunday was fathers day (gay) ... I ended up going to John's and hanging out with him that night. Always fun with that kid. Then Monday I woke up early (yes me) and went to the gym ... then went and saw dodgeball, then went and hung out with John and Travis. = ). I always have so much fun with those two. Especially when John tries to pour water in Travis mouth ... ; ). hah. Ive been pretty depressed lately and that just sucks ... Ive been thinking a lot about things that have happened in the past ... and I really wish I could let it all go, but I just cant.
I just wish I knew the truth about some certain things ...
but ... somethings ... I'll never know.
I hate being sad and depressed and it really doesnt help when my parents are constantly yelling at me for no good reason. = /. But hey ... I guess thats life. I guess I just miss .... him. Things will never be the same and I just have a hard time dealing with that. I need someone...someone to come along and just make everything right, someone to erase all my pain and make me feel like myself. Because I sure as hell dont feel like myself. Ugh, I guess Im just a hopeless romantic, waiting for someone to love me like I could love them. But for some reason ... I dont think that will ever happen. Oh well. Life sucks ... end of story.