The Third War
Ok...I'm gonna rant for a while...so all of u who don't mind...go ahead and read....and yes it's about the same person I've been ranting about for the past who knows how long. Seriously, what the hell is his problem? Ok...I was at the bench outside the school just no less then an hour and a half ago, talking with Karmin. She called me and told me to come hang out with her down there. And Matt had to be there of course...but I wasn't gonna let that bother me. Of course, I had no control over that part. Matt was his usual self. FYI, I don't really care about using his name on here, he doesn't use LJ and even if he did, screw him. Where does he get off calling me a pedophile? He always does...in some way or another and I'm so tired of it. I'm no less of a pervert then him...and I at least try to control that side of me, which he obviously does not. He even has the balls to blame his perversion on me, saying that last year before I started hanging around he was fine, but then I killed his "gnomes" which were blocking that side of him. Whatever, he killed those "gnomes" himself. There's so much about him, what he does that pisses me off. And he uses everything against me. He brings things up that I'd rather be kept quiet because I'm ashamed of those things, then taunts me with them. Yeah, well like he's never done things like what he says before. Oh and get this, he asked me how me and Heather were doing...implying I was going out with her! What a dumb piece of....I won't finish that. I won't sink to his level. He swears now...I won't be like him. I hate the way he makes me react, the chain reactions he sets off inside of me...I can't control it. And after he leaves, I feel like crap. I feel like a major ass and I didn't do anything!!! Why does he insist on making my life crap? He holds the stupidest grudges and ignores people for the wrong reasons. He doesn't recognize when someone truly cares for him, and he hurts those he says he cares about. What is that Taylor? That's not love...that's not anything of what u say it is. I know u will never read this...but I don't care. I'm getting this out. I'm getting it all out. On here...for those who care about me to know what is going on inside my mind...and if u push me too far...I will say it to ur face. You have no idea how many people you've hurt u freaking coward...you have no idea what you do to people. To people who truly care for u. I've been here for u the whole time...and u pushed me away...then turned on me after I tried to help u. What the hell? And you think that people actually trust u? You think people truly want to be around u? How could they want to when ur such an ass! I have had it with u Matt...u have pushed me too far. No I won't snap like u think I will...but ur gone. I don't care what u say about me anymore...I don't care what u do. I'm through trying to help u. Come back once u realize how big an ass u've been and realize that there are people here who actually care about u. I always have Matt. But u don't seem to see that. Maybe ur too scared to ask for help. Maybe ur afraid that life isn't in ur control. Well guess what...it never was. You will never be in control of ur own life...ud be stupid to try to be. You say so many things and u lie so many times...why do u have to lie all the time? What...do u think people will think ur boring if u take away the extravagance of ur life? Do u think people won't like the real u? Do u even like the real u? Cuz if u don't...ur screwed. Face it Taylor...the real u scares u. Face urself Taylor and admit to who u truly are. Look at me...I'm a pervert, I can be a major pervert, I can be an ass, I can hurt people, but people still accept me. I own up to my faults...I don't lie them away or hide them behind some massive story. Take the mask off and show people who u are. You have no idea how many times I've wanted to say all this to his face. I've wanted to punch him in the face, shove him against a wall, and yell at him. I've wanted to make him realize the pain he's inflicted. I've wanted to inflict that same pain on him. But no...I won't sink to that level. I won't be like him. I know he's gonna keep doing this...I know he will always attack me. Fine Taylor...if war is what u want, then war is what u shall have. A line has been drawn in the sand my friend, a line that u've crossed too many times without any retaliatory fire. Enough is enough...I will fight back. Two times before you've turned ur back on me and attacked me, then came back and pretended to be my friend. This is it...the Third War has begun. I know there are people who read this that feel the same way I do...he can't be allowed to hurt people forever. Help me...at least support me. I need ur help to stand against him. But too many of u may feel too loyal to him...I don't know...I'm not asking u to choose one friend over the other...just to stand against his hypocrisy and lies. He needs to know what he's done. The Third War has begun and nothing will be left unchanged. This time I've had it, I'm fighting back.