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I've fooled myself again into thinking I am something that I just can never be.
I don't think it's such a good idea to constantly remind myself how much of a failure I am, but I do think it keeps me from digging myself into a deeper grave.
I am, completely worthless as a human being.
Even now I'm just fooling myself.
If there is anything I have learned from 24 years of living on this earth, it is that I just do not get what I want.
I need to find happiness somehow.
Sadly, art doesn't do that for me anymore, and I have serious doubts that have plagued my mind recently that it is something im growing out of, due to me not being any good at it at all.
I don't know how to fix any of this other than doing what so many others do.
I am hopeless.
I don't think it's such a good idea to constantly remind myself how much of a failure I am, but I do think it keeps me from digging myself into a deeper grave.
I am, completely worthless as a human being.
Even now I'm just fooling myself.
If there is anything I have learned from 24 years of living on this earth, it is that I just do not get what I want.
I need to find happiness somehow.
Sadly, art doesn't do that for me anymore, and I have serious doubts that have plagued my mind recently that it is something im growing out of, due to me not being any good at it at all.
I don't know how to fix any of this other than doing what so many others do.
I am hopeless.