i want your ugly, i want your disease.
so i finally got around to make a livejournal, hip hip horraah! :p i don't know if i'll even keep up with this thing but i'll try. i totally need some help with doing this thing though, this is my first journal & i have nooo idea how to work it, lol. anyways, call me kye. i'll be using this as both a personal and maybe doing some graphics on this too? - right now, no graphics. later on you'll see my work :"D i'm not on my laptop with photoshop on it, so right now i'm just going to rant.
so this past week was absolutely horrible. i've been going at it with friends, and ex-friends. and it's almost unbearableee :| i've been on edge just worrying so damn much. and i've been horribly depressed, so i've been up in my room a whole lot, yanno? so my dad comes and says that i need to stop being a "hermit" and he took my phone away, threatened to take me to a pyschatrist, told me something was wrong with me mentally, etc. nice right? ugh. and on top of that, i've been terrified lately of losing the one person i just simply couldn't live without :/ i almost lost him for good, and i actually - for the first time ever - thought i was going to hurt myself if he left me. goshh. i'm glad we're still eachothers backbone, but eh - im still worried as fuck knowing we came that close and it could happen again, yanno?
anywayzzzz. hopefully next week is better. i hate feeling like this, honestly. i should happy and live life to the fullest, instead of hiding underneath a blanket with tears rolling down my cheeks. i better stop now before i start crying again. god, im not this emo -.- mhm, i guess whatever the future holds, i'll be okay in the end.
xox kye
so this past week was absolutely horrible. i've been going at it with friends, and ex-friends. and it's almost unbearableee :| i've been on edge just worrying so damn much. and i've been horribly depressed, so i've been up in my room a whole lot, yanno? so my dad comes and says that i need to stop being a "hermit" and he took my phone away, threatened to take me to a pyschatrist, told me something was wrong with me mentally, etc. nice right? ugh. and on top of that, i've been terrified lately of losing the one person i just simply couldn't live without :/ i almost lost him for good, and i actually - for the first time ever - thought i was going to hurt myself if he left me. goshh. i'm glad we're still eachothers backbone, but eh - im still worried as fuck knowing we came that close and it could happen again, yanno?
anywayzzzz. hopefully next week is better. i hate feeling like this, honestly. i should happy and live life to the fullest, instead of hiding underneath a blanket with tears rolling down my cheeks. i better stop now before i start crying again. god, im not this emo -.- mhm, i guess whatever the future holds, i'll be okay in the end.
xox kye