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seek serenity and you will find it.
breath. just keep strong. with nothing to look forward to ... with all trust and hope lost, i have nothing.
i want nothing ...
i need something.
just breath and maybe these tears will stop. and maybe i will learn to be less ... less like this. i can't stand that i feel like my heart is that coal that once was beating red.
dripping black with no red in sight.
in picture perfect photographs.
black and white and gray.
something that will never be.
so i live another day pretending that i'm fine slowly dying inside. and i can't help but think that this will be the end of me.
how selfish.
i think i know what draws me to the internet. and this journal. it's keeps me sane. i read some of my friends entries and i think jesus, i'm not the only one.
just once i'd like to see that perfect day i can write about. i need more. more than this.
breath. just keep strong. with nothing to look forward to ... with all trust and hope lost, i have nothing.
i want nothing ...
i need something.
just breath and maybe these tears will stop. and maybe i will learn to be less ... less like this. i can't stand that i feel like my heart is that coal that once was beating red.
dripping black with no red in sight.
in picture perfect photographs.
black and white and gray.
something that will never be.
so i live another day pretending that i'm fine slowly dying inside. and i can't help but think that this will be the end of me.
how selfish.
i think i know what draws me to the internet. and this journal. it's keeps me sane. i read some of my friends entries and i think jesus, i'm not the only one.
just once i'd like to see that perfect day i can write about. i need more. more than this.