i've waited such a long time to be where i am going
I am nearly done with the my first semester at SAC and it isn't coming soon enough. I need time to rest and to be creative. I am still considering a change in majors, but have made no concrete decisions.
So much has taken place. Life changes and I change with it // there is a constant evolution. I rarely feel stuck anymore because of this. When things feel stale, I make a move in a different direction... and I have the freedom to do so.
I am on my way to Colorado in a few weeks, then California. I am vacationing to see a couple of wonderful people, minus Estevan due to conflicting schedules. It will be my first time traveling alone and I am incredibly excited. I feel like I am finally headed toward a life I have always envisioned for myself.
It has been more than 7 months that I've been single. Relationships have been fluid and lighthearted. I am much more in control of my impulses (in accordance with my new year's resolution) and I am very satisfied with the results. Currently, my thoughts are reaching for a boy who lives very far away. I am at once surprised and awe-struck at my own response to him, but he is a lot of things that I am looking for. We are both eager to pursue something that may not be easy. However, I will not deny myself these feelings based on something as changeable as proximity.
I am amazed at the resiliency of the human spirit and its ability to maintain hope and faith. I have not an ounce of doubt that I can know true love again, despite every tragedy and betrayal I have encountered. I won't ever settle again and I won't believe that I deserve less because of past relationships. I won't fear love.
So much has taken place. Life changes and I change with it // there is a constant evolution. I rarely feel stuck anymore because of this. When things feel stale, I make a move in a different direction... and I have the freedom to do so.
I am on my way to Colorado in a few weeks, then California. I am vacationing to see a couple of wonderful people, minus Estevan due to conflicting schedules. It will be my first time traveling alone and I am incredibly excited. I feel like I am finally headed toward a life I have always envisioned for myself.
It has been more than 7 months that I've been single. Relationships have been fluid and lighthearted. I am much more in control of my impulses (in accordance with my new year's resolution) and I am very satisfied with the results. Currently, my thoughts are reaching for a boy who lives very far away. I am at once surprised and awe-struck at my own response to him, but he is a lot of things that I am looking for. We are both eager to pursue something that may not be easy. However, I will not deny myself these feelings based on something as changeable as proximity.
I am amazed at the resiliency of the human spirit and its ability to maintain hope and faith. I have not an ounce of doubt that I can know true love again, despite every tragedy and betrayal I have encountered. I won't ever settle again and I won't believe that I deserve less because of past relationships. I won't fear love.