anything's possible on this bright sunny day. . .
It's been a little over a month since I last update this thing. Don't think I've forgotten about my very few readers. I've basically been coasting along during my wonderfully boring and equally relaxing summer vacation.
I ended up staying at the school until the very last day. My Uncle and a family friend ended up coming to Athens to pick me up. That was an interesting car ride. My Uncle attempted to make small talk many times. His behavior the past year or so has really weirded me out. I'm trying to reconcile the fact that maybe he's changed and has become a pretty nice guy, but every now and then I remember what he was like during my childhood and the wall goes right back up. I mean. . .I have seen this guy, drunk off his ass, hold a weapon up against his ex-girlfriend's stomach, while she is pregnant, and threaten her. That's not something you come away from and think "In a few years, he'll be a better guy and I can care for him again", you know
Right now, I'm just working through how I feel about my family in general. I'm wondering if I'll be able to share the rest of my life with these people. The sad truth his, we hope that when we're older, we can still have our family around to remind us of our wonderful childhood and to pass on all those little stories that helped us out as kids to our children, but that's not how it works. One can only hope. Coming out to my family was never a big thing to me, but lately, I've been thinking about it a lot more and I think it's something I want to give more importance to. I'm not saying I want to be able to bring my boyfriend home (I wouldn't subject other people to this), but I don't want there to be any confusion as to who I'm dating, etc. That's one thing that I can eliminate in one (hopefully easy) conversation. Another thing I need to work through this before the end of the summer, which is going by pretty fast. We're already pretty much halfway through June.
I haven't really hung out with anyone other than family this entire time. I do get the feeling sometimes that my friends just do not want to hang out with me. I'm not saying that's the case, but when I have to be the one to call and attempt to plan things all the time, I really does irk my nerves. I really don't want to come off as needy, but to me, it's a tad weird to not at least call or communicate with a friend in some way, shape, or form for an extended period of time. People are busy, I understand this, but it doesn't take long to check in. And, I know I'm guilty of the same sometimes, so I'm not upset about it. Most because I'm probably suppressing some of it, but eh, no one will notice.
I've seen some good movies, heard some excellent music and am now kind of looking forward to going back to school. I think I'm having a standard summer for me. Unfortunately, I'm probably going to miss Atlanta Pride, which is next week. So, I go the entire summer without seeing some people. I'll deal. Sorry for the rambling and I hope you guys enjoy the update. I'll try to not be a one month poster, but it's hard not to.
I ended up staying at the school until the very last day. My Uncle and a family friend ended up coming to Athens to pick me up. That was an interesting car ride. My Uncle attempted to make small talk many times. His behavior the past year or so has really weirded me out. I'm trying to reconcile the fact that maybe he's changed and has become a pretty nice guy, but every now and then I remember what he was like during my childhood and the wall goes right back up. I mean. . .I have seen this guy, drunk off his ass, hold a weapon up against his ex-girlfriend's stomach, while she is pregnant, and threaten her. That's not something you come away from and think "In a few years, he'll be a better guy and I can care for him again", you know
Right now, I'm just working through how I feel about my family in general. I'm wondering if I'll be able to share the rest of my life with these people. The sad truth his, we hope that when we're older, we can still have our family around to remind us of our wonderful childhood and to pass on all those little stories that helped us out as kids to our children, but that's not how it works. One can only hope. Coming out to my family was never a big thing to me, but lately, I've been thinking about it a lot more and I think it's something I want to give more importance to. I'm not saying I want to be able to bring my boyfriend home (I wouldn't subject other people to this), but I don't want there to be any confusion as to who I'm dating, etc. That's one thing that I can eliminate in one (hopefully easy) conversation. Another thing I need to work through this before the end of the summer, which is going by pretty fast. We're already pretty much halfway through June.
I haven't really hung out with anyone other than family this entire time. I do get the feeling sometimes that my friends just do not want to hang out with me. I'm not saying that's the case, but when I have to be the one to call and attempt to plan things all the time, I really does irk my nerves. I really don't want to come off as needy, but to me, it's a tad weird to not at least call or communicate with a friend in some way, shape, or form for an extended period of time. People are busy, I understand this, but it doesn't take long to check in. And, I know I'm guilty of the same sometimes, so I'm not upset about it. Most because I'm probably suppressing some of it, but eh, no one will notice.
I've seen some good movies, heard some excellent music and am now kind of looking forward to going back to school. I think I'm having a standard summer for me. Unfortunately, I'm probably going to miss Atlanta Pride, which is next week. So, I go the entire summer without seeing some people. I'll deal. Sorry for the rambling and I hope you guys enjoy the update. I'll try to not be a one month poster, but it's hard not to.