who knows anymore
It's frickin one thirty in the morning and i should definitely be sleeping but for some reason i just can't. I have a really long day tomorrow and i really need rest. but for some reason i try to close my eyes and i can't fall asleep, or i lost the sense of tiredness. Hector is away for the weekend, and it's nice being able to have some time by myself. I rarely get that anymore and its definitely nice when i do. Things with school are good. Things with the Navy are getting better, this paperwork shit takes a lot longer than anticipated. I feel my life changing quicker than expected, big things are going to change, and i'm not sure how to handle it all really. Things have to change if they don't i'll loose my mind, and i understand change is a natural part of life, but it's coping with, and going along with, and making the decisions that have to be made in order for life to be bareable. i guess i could say. The past has ways of sneaking up on you when you aren't expecting it, and it's done that to me. I'm hoping that maybe it will help coax the change out of me, but i'm stubborn, and i probably won't allow natural courses to take place.
I have my own shit to deal with, and it's nice you people actually read me pouring my heart out, and reading me complain i guess.
Take care of yourselves. Graduation is coming faster than you think. Be smart, be safe, most of all good luck. I will be a Bookers graduation, and i will be congratulating everyone of you that actually MATTER to me. I could list but it would either be too small and that'd be embarassing, or too long and no one will read it.. <3 you know who you are..... <3 Love you guys to death C/O 2007!! I'm still a part of that!!!
Love you all! Thanks for sticking around as long as you did.... <3 Megan