Long time, no post.
So much has happened since I last posted on this damn thing.
Cared too much about someone, got too close to someone and hurt someone else...
I still miss him. I know I shouldn't but I do. Like a part of me always hopes he will knock on the door needed a place to go. To get away from that stupid fat bitch.
But my life is totally like a mirror, reflects what I show.
Tim and I want to get married in June when we go back to Boston to visit. I miss it there, I can't wait until we move back.
J and C are having a baby, I'm so glad...I'm going to be an Auntie!! I'm glad J is happy though...he deserves everything and finding C was so cute! They are so good together.
All mostly ramble and I have so much on my mind...
"everytime i try to make you smile always feeling sorry for yourself everytime i try to make you laugh you cant your too tough...is that too much that im asking for?"--for you, you loser..im not about to look at your face again...
Wow. This town sucks. you know I've been thinking...if I see Nicole and she gives me one wrong damn looked, imma punch her in her face, nasty, yellow, fucked up teeth mouth. She needs to grow up and get a freaking life instead of relying on mommy her whole damn life and being a child.
I do hope to pick a guitar and learn to play, possibly get a bass for my bday in June, start writing some music with my lyrics and become a famous loser.
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Can't find where she is
Alone in the dark
Lying to herself-rejected
She wouldn't change a thing about it
It's the best feeling
Innocence in a guilty heart
It's the worst feeling
She couldn't tell you
Why the abyss of mistakes got her there
It's where she lies broken inside
Not knowing where she belongs or where to go
Drowing in the refelction in the mirror
Confused. Lost. Stolen. Ripped.
She's losing her mind. Her faith.
Dreams lost. Friends betrayed.
Love found and reborn.
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Bah, how dramatic right? That'd be me. I have tons of writings that I'm hoping to put in here. I will although have random quotes from songs...as I listen to music while I write in this thing. So yup.
Oh I have newly glorified unhealthy hot obsession with Robert Pattinson. His voice and music is soooooooooooooooooooo AMAZING and beautiful. His unbelieve gorgeous looks are also a huge plus!
I've read all four saga of the Twilight series I own the move and have seen it like 20 times...SO FAR...I have tons of mags with him EVERYWHERE..speaking of which the photos in GQ...HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
So yup, guess that's it. Out to abuse my other unhealthy obsession. Smoking.
Cared too much about someone, got too close to someone and hurt someone else...
I still miss him. I know I shouldn't but I do. Like a part of me always hopes he will knock on the door needed a place to go. To get away from that stupid fat bitch.
But my life is totally like a mirror, reflects what I show.
Tim and I want to get married in June when we go back to Boston to visit. I miss it there, I can't wait until we move back.
J and C are having a baby, I'm so glad...I'm going to be an Auntie!! I'm glad J is happy though...he deserves everything and finding C was so cute! They are so good together.
All mostly ramble and I have so much on my mind...
"everytime i try to make you smile always feeling sorry for yourself everytime i try to make you laugh you cant your too tough...is that too much that im asking for?"--for you, you loser..im not about to look at your face again...
Wow. This town sucks. you know I've been thinking...if I see Nicole and she gives me one wrong damn looked, imma punch her in her face, nasty, yellow, fucked up teeth mouth. She needs to grow up and get a freaking life instead of relying on mommy her whole damn life and being a child.
I do hope to pick a guitar and learn to play, possibly get a bass for my bday in June, start writing some music with my lyrics and become a famous loser.
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Can't find where she is
Alone in the dark
Lying to herself-rejected
She wouldn't change a thing about it
It's the best feeling
Innocence in a guilty heart
It's the worst feeling
She couldn't tell you
Why the abyss of mistakes got her there
It's where she lies broken inside
Not knowing where she belongs or where to go
Drowing in the refelction in the mirror
Confused. Lost. Stolen. Ripped.
She's losing her mind. Her faith.
Dreams lost. Friends betrayed.
Love found and reborn.
--------------------------------
Bah, how dramatic right? That'd be me. I have tons of writings that I'm hoping to put in here. I will although have random quotes from songs...as I listen to music while I write in this thing. So yup.
Oh I have newly glorified unhealthy hot obsession with Robert Pattinson. His voice and music is soooooooooooooooooooo AMAZING and beautiful. His unbelieve gorgeous looks are also a huge plus!
I've read all four saga of the Twilight series I own the move and have seen it like 20 times...SO FAR...I have tons of mags with him EVERYWHERE..speaking of which the photos in GQ...HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
So yup, guess that's it. Out to abuse my other unhealthy obsession. Smoking.