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He's been sending me messages telling me he loves me and wants to be with me and calling me beautiful, just being sweet. And he says that he's trying to break up with her. He's trying to find the right thing to say so he won't feel guilty about it. I told him I wanted him to be with him and he said he was WORKING ON THAT!!!
Then last night we were talking about her, I was in a really pissy mood so I wasn't up for playing any games. I asked if he was talking to her and he said no. His words exactly "Trust me I'm not". Then I said "Why? You don't want to talk to her?" and he said that it wasn't that, it was just because she was sleeping. Which made me think that he did want to talk to her. I asked if he missed her. He said kinda, and that he misses everyone. I asked if he loved her, he said he didn't know.
I told him I didn't think he would end it with her. I just don't believe it. I can't believe anything he says anymore. I told him how I felt and he didn't say anything.
I told him that I wanted to be with him but if he wanted her to just tell me. He didn't say anything. I know he's going to pick her. It is really going to kill me. He was saying the sweetest stuff, being a completely different guy and making me fall for him all over again. Only just to be crushed... again!
Fuck dude! I don't want to go through this again. I don't think I can make it.
If he picks her, I'm done. I won't even want to be his friend anymore because it's too much. It hurts too much and he doesn't understand that.
He's making a HUGE mistake!!! He talks so much shit about her and leads me to believe that he would rather be with me. She is no good for him!!! Why can't he see what I see? Ughhhhhhh!!!! :(
I just want to disappear. I want to go to sleep and wake up when this is all over with. You have no idea how painful this is for me. I hate him... but I don't.
Then last night we were talking about her, I was in a really pissy mood so I wasn't up for playing any games. I asked if he was talking to her and he said no. His words exactly "Trust me I'm not". Then I said "Why? You don't want to talk to her?" and he said that it wasn't that, it was just because she was sleeping. Which made me think that he did want to talk to her. I asked if he missed her. He said kinda, and that he misses everyone. I asked if he loved her, he said he didn't know.
I told him I didn't think he would end it with her. I just don't believe it. I can't believe anything he says anymore. I told him how I felt and he didn't say anything.
I told him that I wanted to be with him but if he wanted her to just tell me. He didn't say anything. I know he's going to pick her. It is really going to kill me. He was saying the sweetest stuff, being a completely different guy and making me fall for him all over again. Only just to be crushed... again!
Fuck dude! I don't want to go through this again. I don't think I can make it.
If he picks her, I'm done. I won't even want to be his friend anymore because it's too much. It hurts too much and he doesn't understand that.
He's making a HUGE mistake!!! He talks so much shit about her and leads me to believe that he would rather be with me. She is no good for him!!! Why can't he see what I see? Ughhhhhhh!!!! :(
I just want to disappear. I want to go to sleep and wake up when this is all over with. You have no idea how painful this is for me. I hate him... but I don't.