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I'm graduating tomorrow. I just want to get it over with honestly. I mean I'm excited, so excited but I'm not looking forward to the actual ceremony. I'm so worried that something will come up and they'll try to keep me from walking. I turned all my books in and I got a letter in the mail today saying I owe sixty dollars for one of 'em because it's "missing". Whatever. And then I'm worried that they might have jipped me missing too many days. Ughhh I hate this school and this town. I'm SO tired of constantly putting up with this dumb junk. I don't even really want to go to the beach anymore, because I'm ready to move now!!!
I didn't go to this church service last night for all the seniors and my mom was PISSSSSED! She came in my room yelling at me. I seriously thought she was going to hit me. She pretty much cussed me out too. Saying "she couldn't believe her own fucking flesh and blood..." and she's NEVER said the f word to me. I was shocked. I said it was just a church service. I didn't know it meant that much to her. But apparently it wasn't just that. She says I despise the ground she walks on and all she does is continue to love me even after all the shit she's had to put up with because of me. I laid there and cried. She really thinks I hate her. She said she didn't know what I wanted from her and she guesses she got her answer since I'm moving away from her. I couldn't believe it. I still haven't recovered from it. I feel so horrible. I'm the worst daughter ever. I'm an awful, selfish person and I just don't even want to be me anymore.
Sorry for not commenting lately... I've been super busy this week. I'll try to catch up on those in my free time tomorrow.
I didn't go to this church service last night for all the seniors and my mom was PISSSSSED! She came in my room yelling at me. I seriously thought she was going to hit me. She pretty much cussed me out too. Saying "she couldn't believe her own fucking flesh and blood..." and she's NEVER said the f word to me. I was shocked. I said it was just a church service. I didn't know it meant that much to her. But apparently it wasn't just that. She says I despise the ground she walks on and all she does is continue to love me even after all the shit she's had to put up with because of me. I laid there and cried. She really thinks I hate her. She said she didn't know what I wanted from her and she guesses she got her answer since I'm moving away from her. I couldn't believe it. I still haven't recovered from it. I feel so horrible. I'm the worst daughter ever. I'm an awful, selfish person and I just don't even want to be me anymore.
Sorry for not commenting lately... I've been super busy this week. I'll try to catch up on those in my free time tomorrow.