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I'll have somewhere close to 50 bucks today after I bring the recyclables down and clean up for mom...I'm contemplating putting it all towards my tattoo instead of Laurie Park on Sunday, but I know that won't actually happen. I'm not spending it yet though because I have that crazy feeling that this isn't even going to work out (again) because as it stands, the plan is to go the day after tomorrow and the only thing that we've accomplished getting is 50 gs. Nothing close to food or tent arrangements or even drives there or back .I don't even know if we have someone to book the site(s) for us yet . Dustin was going to, I think with his mom's credit card but he was also gunna get us a drive, so I'm not counting on it. If it happens, bomb. I'll get my quart and we'll chill, but if not I really can't say that I'd be the least bit surprised, and my money goes to a tattoo. I REALLY Freaking want that tattoo.....And If I can't get it before the end of summer I'll be pissed. (Woah....That's only like a month. I can't believe half the summer went by so quickly already.) --Not that it matters to me, 'cause you know how I have to go to school in september and all....HAHAHA.
I'm still on the hunt for a job, and clearly I'm still as unsucessful as I was before because I'm still not even close. I don't get it. I've put out atleast 50 resumes in the last 2 or 3 weeks, I've gone back to like 20 of those places to talk to the managers, I've called places, I've e-mailed them, I've even posted my resume on 2 different sites and applied for like 5 places online and I'm running out of ideas. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, but whatever it is it's working.
I feel like a peice of shit. Everytime I stop and think of the fact that I'm 18, never been employed and don't even know how to drive a car, I feel like a waiste of breath. No one wants to hire me because all my resume says is graduated, bilingual, and babysitter. Damn, I'm surprised all the bosses in town aren't fighting each other off to hire someone so god damn experienced.
It was different say, last year when I didin't have a job because the difference there was that I didin't care and I wasn't perticularly trying to get a job. I had no one to blame but myself because I didint try but there's now way I could even say I'm not trying this year. I've tried harder then some people have had to that have been working for years. I guess I jsut have shitty luck.