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I can't think, I don't even know whats going through my head at this moment in time. And I can't speak. Everything has just crashed down on me.
I had a good day and night yesterday except when i got a text that seriously made my heart pound, but then that passed and the night carried on. So yeh, I had a good night. I might update about it later because it really was quite fun, but when i feel like it.
I want to talk to someone, not specifically about this because I don't think I can speak about this. However, I just want to be comforted, just have someone to talk to like that, and I've thought about it.. and I don't think theres anyone right now that I'd want to talk to. Is that depressing? Or maybe I just don't open myself fully to people. I really don't think I do, I keep atleast something unknown to them, not intentionally, but I don't think that theres many people or even 2 people that fully know me.
I don't know what to do. My stomach seems to be attacking itself because I havent eaten since 6pm yesterday, and I'm cold, but I don't particularly care to be honest.
Oh god. I hate this. My dad saw me upset, eventhough I tried to hide it. I had to walk upstairs caus I couldn't say anything. Then he asked me again if i was ok, and what was wrong, do I want to talk about it 'no' do I want to talk to my mum about it 'no' and I again had to walk off into the en suite before I started to cry right infront of him. I hate my parents knowing I'm upset.
I found this on Pui ee's LJ, she didn't write it but I love it so much I have to paste it:
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just take the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.... The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
I actually believe that. Think of all the girls that have no personality are fake or whatever that the guy you fancy decides to go with and you wonder whats wrong with you. When really they're just the easy option because the guy wants to go for the easy relationship because he doesn't want to get hurt by you, because it would actually hurt more with you than the other girl that he'll be with for a second.
I had a good day and night yesterday except when i got a text that seriously made my heart pound, but then that passed and the night carried on. So yeh, I had a good night. I might update about it later because it really was quite fun, but when i feel like it.
I want to talk to someone, not specifically about this because I don't think I can speak about this. However, I just want to be comforted, just have someone to talk to like that, and I've thought about it.. and I don't think theres anyone right now that I'd want to talk to. Is that depressing? Or maybe I just don't open myself fully to people. I really don't think I do, I keep atleast something unknown to them, not intentionally, but I don't think that theres many people or even 2 people that fully know me.
I don't know what to do. My stomach seems to be attacking itself because I havent eaten since 6pm yesterday, and I'm cold, but I don't particularly care to be honest.
Oh god. I hate this. My dad saw me upset, eventhough I tried to hide it. I had to walk upstairs caus I couldn't say anything. Then he asked me again if i was ok, and what was wrong, do I want to talk about it 'no' do I want to talk to my mum about it 'no' and I again had to walk off into the en suite before I started to cry right infront of him. I hate my parents knowing I'm upset.
I found this on Pui ee's LJ, she didn't write it but I love it so much I have to paste it:
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just take the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.... The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
I actually believe that. Think of all the girls that have no personality are fake or whatever that the guy you fancy decides to go with and you wonder whats wrong with you. When really they're just the easy option because the guy wants to go for the easy relationship because he doesn't want to get hurt by you, because it would actually hurt more with you than the other girl that he'll be with for a second.