A day late, a buck short.
Well, I don't know if things are looking up or just more complicated. I want to have an update for this thing where I can just be thrilled about something in the future rather than all this uncertainty. I had a day where I felt better...
It was...yesterday?...I think. I actually talked to my parents. I told them I want to go back, or rather, that I am going back to school...and I want to start in the spring. Alot of what they had to say about it didn't make me feel real great but I understand. I'd be hesitant to support me too considering how this all went the first time...but they have to see a difference in me. I'm not asking them to pay ANYTHING...just co-sign a loan...that's all...
But they will spend $10,000 on a camper...and more than that on a boat that just sits in our driveway.
...But I think I can show them how much I want this...I think I can get them to sign the loan for me. And they didn't really shoot my plans down, I think that they really would like to see me do what I want, I just have to show them that I'm ready.
I can do this. It would have been easier if I had been ready the first time...no...no...it would have been better if I hadn't gone the first time....no, I take that back too. I needed the first time. I don't regret that.
Lol, I'm a broken record...it's always that same story with me, lol.
I want everyone to know how much I appreciate them. Dustin and Jeremy hear the most about this crap and I love them both so much for always being there. And others like Tiff and Bill and Shawna for listening or just getting my mind off of things for awhile...and anyone else I've talked to about it. I sometimes forget how many people are willing to listen and care when I need it...if I haven't named you, don't think that you aren't appreciated.
And another thing, I miss Kevin.
It was...yesterday?...I think. I actually talked to my parents. I told them I want to go back, or rather, that I am going back to school...and I want to start in the spring. Alot of what they had to say about it didn't make me feel real great but I understand. I'd be hesitant to support me too considering how this all went the first time...but they have to see a difference in me. I'm not asking them to pay ANYTHING...just co-sign a loan...that's all...
But they will spend $10,000 on a camper...and more than that on a boat that just sits in our driveway.
...But I think I can show them how much I want this...I think I can get them to sign the loan for me. And they didn't really shoot my plans down, I think that they really would like to see me do what I want, I just have to show them that I'm ready.
I can do this. It would have been easier if I had been ready the first time...no...no...it would have been better if I hadn't gone the first time....no, I take that back too. I needed the first time. I don't regret that.
Lol, I'm a broken record...it's always that same story with me, lol.
I want everyone to know how much I appreciate them. Dustin and Jeremy hear the most about this crap and I love them both so much for always being there. And others like Tiff and Bill and Shawna for listening or just getting my mind off of things for awhile...and anyone else I've talked to about it. I sometimes forget how many people are willing to listen and care when I need it...if I haven't named you, don't think that you aren't appreciated.
And another thing, I miss Kevin.