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okay. yesterday i auditioned for the musical. dan and sarah came with me and i love them becuase they were my emotional support. anyway, yeah i'll admit yesterday i did pretty well. i was so into it and pumped and like i can't even explain the feeling but i know i did really well. So then today they made an announcement during homeroom saying that everyone who auditioned should check the list posted on the auditorium door. So i did, and I MADE CALL BACKS!! yeyyy for me. i was so excited and happy and yeah i had a wonderful day for the rest of the day because that made me happy.
So then at 3:30 i had to go back for call backs, and let me tell you i was TERRIBLE. i was totally not in the little zone or whatever and i made a total fool of myself. I was singing, and even the songs that were in my range i fucked up. and then they made me sing like 4 soprano songs and it was aweful. see, you sang all of the songs with all the girls like twice and then they made you get on center stage and sing them all alone and oh my god. how scary was that. 25ish drama kids...and 6 people who are auditioning you.
i fucked up so badly they made this announcement at the end of all the girls solo things.."okay everyonne were going to list a few names and give those people the oppurtunity to go home. this does not necissarly mean that you didnt get it, it could also mean that we no longer need you becuase we've decided what part you will be casted as...nicole and sarah. (this really weird girl) so yeah. then i went home at 4:30ish and its not supposed to end until 7:30. how gay is that. im freaking pathetic.AAAAAAAH im so embarassed
anyway..i had to vent and now its time to go cry about what a fucking loser i am. BLAHH
So then at 3:30 i had to go back for call backs, and let me tell you i was TERRIBLE. i was totally not in the little zone or whatever and i made a total fool of myself. I was singing, and even the songs that were in my range i fucked up. and then they made me sing like 4 soprano songs and it was aweful. see, you sang all of the songs with all the girls like twice and then they made you get on center stage and sing them all alone and oh my god. how scary was that. 25ish drama kids...and 6 people who are auditioning you.
i fucked up so badly they made this announcement at the end of all the girls solo things.."okay everyonne were going to list a few names and give those people the oppurtunity to go home. this does not necissarly mean that you didnt get it, it could also mean that we no longer need you becuase we've decided what part you will be casted as...nicole and sarah. (this really weird girl) so yeah. then i went home at 4:30ish and its not supposed to end until 7:30. how gay is that. im freaking pathetic.AAAAAAAH im so embarassed
anyway..i had to vent and now its time to go cry about what a fucking loser i am. BLAHH