Aug 10, 2005 23:57
tuesday- went to melissa
today- ashleys party
thursday- internet cafe
friday- spencers grad party and/or club triune
saturday/sunday- the lake
monday- dres house
why do people get mad of stupid little things? im sorry im the only person whos actually honest and doesnt sugar coat things. personally, id rather someone be straight up with me. its easier in the long run.
i just dont understand him. he says hed rather be with me but hes with her. sometimes i think everythings a lie just so i dont get hurt even more, or because he doesnt want me to give up so he has a back up. and i kind of understand why he doesnt want to break up with her, but its obvious it wont work between them, well it is to me anyways. i just dont want him to months later break up with her and then ill be moved on and wiht someone else and hell want me then. and itll be too late. or even worse ill completely screw over the person im with for him. id be willing to bet that if he knew how much i actually liked him and how i know things would work out hed be with me. but its not like i can just tell him how i feel, i have but you cant describe a feeling. and telling him things will work isnt good enough. he wants proof. i guess ill just work on friendship right now.