OVERWHELMED!
I am so freakin stressed out about my daddy, I love him to death, but dang this is absolutly crazy!
He will go in his room and go to sleep for HOURS... he slept today from like 3-7, I was so scared, cause he can't remember anything anymore... I am honestly terrified, I can't lose my daddy! I called my mom, and now everyone one is worried about him... I am so afraid one day I am going to go try to wake my daddy up and he will be dead... my mom offered to come over and check on him for me, cause she doesn't want me to be the one to find him dead... I am just to close to him... It would hurt so much worse! Now my mom is over here, comforting my dad! This is so weird, my parents DO NOT get along at all, but she is so freakin sweet to come over here and be with him and me!
She is making him, laugh, wow I haven't heard him laugh in a long time...
My dad won't go to work, and he just sleeps, my mom said he blacking out and that isn't a good sign... her dad my real grandpa died the same way when she was only 13 or something...
It's hard trying to talk to my dad about this stuff, because I know he will be dying soon, and he just keeps telling me he is going to live to be like 76, and I will be like 48, have grandkids, he doesn't want be he will love them anyways!
I know that is not the reality of this situation at all! It sucks, having to feel like I am the one that needs to take care of him, remember things like when his appointments are and be responsible for him getting to them on time!
The other day my cousin woke me up telling me my dad was saying he was going to kill himself, she was yelling at me telling me to stop crying, and to go out there and help... I feel so helpless I don't know how to help him...!
I am going to be so lost without him... and to top all of this off, my credit card bill is due AND my mom told me I have to come up with 102 dollars to pay for my insurance on my car this month cause she can't! Well damn there goes ALL of my money! :(
Oh well this is my life!
He will go in his room and go to sleep for HOURS... he slept today from like 3-7, I was so scared, cause he can't remember anything anymore... I am honestly terrified, I can't lose my daddy! I called my mom, and now everyone one is worried about him... I am so afraid one day I am going to go try to wake my daddy up and he will be dead... my mom offered to come over and check on him for me, cause she doesn't want me to be the one to find him dead... I am just to close to him... It would hurt so much worse! Now my mom is over here, comforting my dad! This is so weird, my parents DO NOT get along at all, but she is so freakin sweet to come over here and be with him and me!
She is making him, laugh, wow I haven't heard him laugh in a long time...
My dad won't go to work, and he just sleeps, my mom said he blacking out and that isn't a good sign... her dad my real grandpa died the same way when she was only 13 or something...
It's hard trying to talk to my dad about this stuff, because I know he will be dying soon, and he just keeps telling me he is going to live to be like 76, and I will be like 48, have grandkids, he doesn't want be he will love them anyways!
I know that is not the reality of this situation at all! It sucks, having to feel like I am the one that needs to take care of him, remember things like when his appointments are and be responsible for him getting to them on time!
The other day my cousin woke me up telling me my dad was saying he was going to kill himself, she was yelling at me telling me to stop crying, and to go out there and help... I feel so helpless I don't know how to help him...!
I am going to be so lost without him... and to top all of this off, my credit card bill is due AND my mom told me I have to come up with 102 dollars to pay for my insurance on my car this month cause she can't! Well damn there goes ALL of my money! :(
Oh well this is my life!