PICK ME UP
"Thanks for being amazing", that's what he said when I pushed him away. I haven't been here before. I've never had someone just try so hard to make me feel better or make me feel loved. He's not cold, it's not a secret, he tells me I'm beautiful and that this is the happiest he's ever been. I'm so afraid of him, but I don't want him to get the wrong idea. I just can't handle losing someone else or getting hurt. I got hot to the point where it was hurting in 3rd period. I was taking off clothes and about to cry. I feel so terrible just about everything. I'm getting so disgustingly fat or maybe I just always looked like this and never noticed. Either way I'm completely over it and my body. I think I should tell Cody all the things I haven't and then see how he feels about me afterwards.