everything you go through only makes you stronger <33
im not gunna lie, it has been a very long time since i have written in this journal.. but I was told that it was a good thing to write down everything that is going on with me to vent a bit, so here it goess..
my week in review:
monday was like any other monday morning...a struggle to wake up. school as usual, dance team practice till 3 -- came home, took a nap and went back to the fields for the varsity football game. All the girls hung out together until halftime. The game was really good (considering i don't know football LOL) one of the players Anthony i think got hurt, i felt really bad that he did a number on his shoulder and couldn't play even though i never met him before. Then apparently Eric split his chin after i left and hadda get stitches..thats a whole story in itself. But we danced at halftime and then shortly after i left to catch some of the dance classes I missed. I came in and they were finishing up tap and starting jazz, so I got to take one class at least. I came home, watched Laguna Beach and fell asleep shortly after.
tuesday I had to student teach at 4. Joanna calls me at 3:30ish telling me to come to the studio now and sit with her while we wait a half an hour for the doors to open. So me being a nice person i dropped everything and went and sat with Joanna. I sat and talked with Joanna till I had ballet at 7:30. Ballet was fine like it always it. Once again came home around 9:30, ate and fell asleep.
wednesday i had to work at 4. had lyrical at 6:30 to 7:30. mom came at 8:15ish .. came home and talked on the computer for hours and slept.
thursday worked at 4. precision tap at 5:30 to 6:30. moreee work then ballet from 8:30 to 9:30.. oh what fun that class hahaha. once again, i came home, talked on the computer and fell asleep.
today. i must say was pretty eventful. homecoming game and parade was postponed to monday. so i came home and finally got a chance to sit and hangout for longer then 45 minutes, which i must say was nice.
I talked to Jessica Bongiorno today, we hadda heart-to-heart =].. Oh do i love talking to that girl .. came out of a really shitty situation smiling because of HER. She really had a lot of helpful things to say that made me feel so much better <33333
Went through some shit with Ashley once again. She told me that she was ignoring me and that we were never good friends in the first place. Yeah 5 years of my life being her best friend down the friggin drain. what a waste! I just never thought that the one person who i thought for so long would stand by my side would go against me and drop me like i didnt even matter to her. It kills me but at the same time im fine with it because now i dont have to deal with her bull anymore. I'll be fine, no worries.
I've just been pretty depressed lately and its really starting to show which isnt good because no one wants to be around a sad or angry person. Yeah your REAL FRIENDS talk you through it like they have today, but the other people, it just gives them another reason to say things about you, which happens, but im not too worried about it.
I was told today by a very wise girl that "life is full of choices and its up to me whether i'm strong enough to do WHATEVER i feel like doing. if i'm strong enough to CHOOSE to find better friends, or CHOOSE to not be there for people who dont deserve it and to CHOOSE whether to worry about me and only me. That i'm strong enough to make it through anything because everything i go through only makes me stronger" <<-- quote from Jess LOL <33
Not much happened today but in a sense everything changed, and everything is different now. for the better...
<333
my week in review:
monday was like any other monday morning...a struggle to wake up. school as usual, dance team practice till 3 -- came home, took a nap and went back to the fields for the varsity football game. All the girls hung out together until halftime. The game was really good (considering i don't know football LOL) one of the players Anthony i think got hurt, i felt really bad that he did a number on his shoulder and couldn't play even though i never met him before. Then apparently Eric split his chin after i left and hadda get stitches..thats a whole story in itself. But we danced at halftime and then shortly after i left to catch some of the dance classes I missed. I came in and they were finishing up tap and starting jazz, so I got to take one class at least. I came home, watched Laguna Beach and fell asleep shortly after.
tuesday I had to student teach at 4. Joanna calls me at 3:30ish telling me to come to the studio now and sit with her while we wait a half an hour for the doors to open. So me being a nice person i dropped everything and went and sat with Joanna. I sat and talked with Joanna till I had ballet at 7:30. Ballet was fine like it always it. Once again came home around 9:30, ate and fell asleep.
wednesday i had to work at 4. had lyrical at 6:30 to 7:30. mom came at 8:15ish .. came home and talked on the computer for hours and slept.
thursday worked at 4. precision tap at 5:30 to 6:30. moreee work then ballet from 8:30 to 9:30.. oh what fun that class hahaha. once again, i came home, talked on the computer and fell asleep.
today. i must say was pretty eventful. homecoming game and parade was postponed to monday. so i came home and finally got a chance to sit and hangout for longer then 45 minutes, which i must say was nice.
I talked to Jessica Bongiorno today, we hadda heart-to-heart =].. Oh do i love talking to that girl .. came out of a really shitty situation smiling because of HER. She really had a lot of helpful things to say that made me feel so much better <33333
Went through some shit with Ashley once again. She told me that she was ignoring me and that we were never good friends in the first place. Yeah 5 years of my life being her best friend down the friggin drain. what a waste! I just never thought that the one person who i thought for so long would stand by my side would go against me and drop me like i didnt even matter to her. It kills me but at the same time im fine with it because now i dont have to deal with her bull anymore. I'll be fine, no worries.
I've just been pretty depressed lately and its really starting to show which isnt good because no one wants to be around a sad or angry person. Yeah your REAL FRIENDS talk you through it like they have today, but the other people, it just gives them another reason to say things about you, which happens, but im not too worried about it.
I was told today by a very wise girl that "life is full of choices and its up to me whether i'm strong enough to do WHATEVER i feel like doing. if i'm strong enough to CHOOSE to find better friends, or CHOOSE to not be there for people who dont deserve it and to CHOOSE whether to worry about me and only me. That i'm strong enough to make it through anything because everything i go through only makes me stronger" <<-- quote from Jess LOL <33
Not much happened today but in a sense everything changed, and everything is different now. for the better...
<333