No, I'm not OK but I guess I'm doin' fine.

[broken_fate]

Sometimes when I get off work, I take my coworker Becca home. She lives in Sanger which is kind of a drive. Sometimes we smoke weed at her house once we get there. I like this. At first I felt awkward but also obliged. But now I just feel comfortable. Anyway we traded some stories and on the way back I heard this song off of a Real Estate album that Aaron left in the CD player of my rental car this weekend... and it just took me. Listened to this song on repeat at least 5 times. I love it when that happens. I don't ever have that moment anymore. And Sanger is out in the country and the sun was setting and I was goin 80 down I-35. It was just a great moment.
I have a second date tomorrow with this programmer guy who works at match.com. Ha! He's nerdy and sweet. Our first date went so well, I'm excited. Just about. everything. Moving to Austin soon. I need to organize my thoughts about moving so that I can get on with it, but I think the best part of all this is that I'm not even the slightest bit worried. I'm ready for the breeze to take me. I am Zen.

I'm not trying to be cool
I only wanna be kind
I know that I've pissed you off
Baby, better rewind

But I'm not yours and you're not mine
No, I'm not ok but I guess I'm doing fine
Jealous lovers, left behind
'The Wonder Years' passed me by
Far away but still on my mind
I think of you from time to time

But I'm not yours and baby, you're not mine
No, I'm not ok but I guess I'm doing fine