my mind is filled with radio cures, electronic surgical words
What do I really want? Over and over again like a broken record and I am screaming my reply, screaming it now, "I don't know!"
And I'm okay with that.
I hope you are.
I want good music
I want good food
and I don't really want to talk about it.
and I don't really want to think about it.
I just want to do it. Save regrets and reservations and misunderstandings for the future where they belong. Because you just won't ever know anything until you try.
And when you know what. Fucking LIKE what is. Because it is what it is and that's what you got. And it's more than good, it's great. Because it's you. It's me.
it IS.
And when everything's buzzing around you, a blurry mess of everything you thought you knew wooshing by so fast you can't even try to see, why bother trying to decipher it? Just start running because that's the only way you MIGHT catch up.
Don't stand still because you're sure as hell not going to see the message from there. Take the time you need to sit and soul seek, but don't get stuck, get off your ass and do something about the parts of things you wish were different.
I realized the other day that life is just a perpetual state of naivety. You'll never know more than what you're going to learn tomorrow, so never base your decisions on what you might learn, only what you already know. You are entitled to your mistakes just as much as you are your victories. Don't put more weight on either. That just leads down a road to self-loathing disaster.
And I don't know about you but to me that sounds terrible.
Am I trying to rationalize? Justify? Defend? believe..? Sure. I am. Because these words are my thoughts and my thoughts are all I've got. And as a human mind I've got to break it down.
More so for myself than you.
So just let me breathe and do what I want to do
And I'm okay with that.
I hope you are.
I want good music
I want good food
and I don't really want to talk about it.
and I don't really want to think about it.
I just want to do it. Save regrets and reservations and misunderstandings for the future where they belong. Because you just won't ever know anything until you try.
And when you know what. Fucking LIKE what is. Because it is what it is and that's what you got. And it's more than good, it's great. Because it's you. It's me.
it IS.
And when everything's buzzing around you, a blurry mess of everything you thought you knew wooshing by so fast you can't even try to see, why bother trying to decipher it? Just start running because that's the only way you MIGHT catch up.
Don't stand still because you're sure as hell not going to see the message from there. Take the time you need to sit and soul seek, but don't get stuck, get off your ass and do something about the parts of things you wish were different.
I realized the other day that life is just a perpetual state of naivety. You'll never know more than what you're going to learn tomorrow, so never base your decisions on what you might learn, only what you already know. You are entitled to your mistakes just as much as you are your victories. Don't put more weight on either. That just leads down a road to self-loathing disaster.
And I don't know about you but to me that sounds terrible.
Am I trying to rationalize? Justify? Defend? believe..? Sure. I am. Because these words are my thoughts and my thoughts are all I've got. And as a human mind I've got to break it down.
More so for myself than you.
So just let me breathe and do what I want to do