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It's a fascinating adventure, pondering back on my states at different times of my life, this journal goes back far, weeks, months, years even.
Ive let it go, let my life get busy..
Yet, if I would have allowed myself the time, I have had the most amazing adventures to look back on this year, starting from newest events...starting osteopathy, a long time dream I didn't know would fall through, the peaceful woman, my base in hawaii, my homeland for the exploratory and evolving self. Still Simon and I, our ongoing ups and downs our bizarre way of loving eachother through the complexity of continuous transformation and self awareness, Nico and his untouchable self, his childish way of being, his adorable contagious humour that I miss because we crossed a big boundarie, with maine, then diners and sleepovers and osheaga and the list goes on and then it calmed down...my landmark curriculum, the scam behind self development...people including I always fall back into their sad way of being human despite all the money we spend on amazing classes, its a practice, its a study, its ongoing and ive gotten alot from the classes ive taken, i also put it out there that i wanted to get more involved in my own change and oppurtunities came and they were amazing and drainning...
What else...Amsterdam and my love, my love who got away, the one person ive met in my life that made me feel like no matter where or who i am, im ok, im all i need, and the way i beleived it in myself when he would tell me was because of the way he was with me, everything was easy and love and sweet and like a teenage love with years and many lives weve had to build a foundation that allowed us to meet up in this lifetime and just enjoy eachother for awhile...and hopefully again.
Hawaii with daniel Klaas and Kash and Parker...emily and parker now.
There was also the 12 wks that needed to be terminated, Kasia who helped me with everything, the support and care.
Building and taking care of a solid group of friends, getting to know eachother, allies...all that wonderful important stuff that comes with growing with the ones around you that you love.
Big thing, big things, everyday there are big things, i just want to remember these bigger ones..the good ones, the bad always irons itself out and fades away in the end,because it should and i let it.
Ive let it go, let my life get busy..
Yet, if I would have allowed myself the time, I have had the most amazing adventures to look back on this year, starting from newest events...starting osteopathy, a long time dream I didn't know would fall through, the peaceful woman, my base in hawaii, my homeland for the exploratory and evolving self. Still Simon and I, our ongoing ups and downs our bizarre way of loving eachother through the complexity of continuous transformation and self awareness, Nico and his untouchable self, his childish way of being, his adorable contagious humour that I miss because we crossed a big boundarie, with maine, then diners and sleepovers and osheaga and the list goes on and then it calmed down...my landmark curriculum, the scam behind self development...people including I always fall back into their sad way of being human despite all the money we spend on amazing classes, its a practice, its a study, its ongoing and ive gotten alot from the classes ive taken, i also put it out there that i wanted to get more involved in my own change and oppurtunities came and they were amazing and drainning...
What else...Amsterdam and my love, my love who got away, the one person ive met in my life that made me feel like no matter where or who i am, im ok, im all i need, and the way i beleived it in myself when he would tell me was because of the way he was with me, everything was easy and love and sweet and like a teenage love with years and many lives weve had to build a foundation that allowed us to meet up in this lifetime and just enjoy eachother for awhile...and hopefully again.
Hawaii with daniel Klaas and Kash and Parker...emily and parker now.
There was also the 12 wks that needed to be terminated, Kasia who helped me with everything, the support and care.
Building and taking care of a solid group of friends, getting to know eachother, allies...all that wonderful important stuff that comes with growing with the ones around you that you love.
Big thing, big things, everyday there are big things, i just want to remember these bigger ones..the good ones, the bad always irons itself out and fades away in the end,because it should and i let it.