lost
life is odd, it seems to venture in a giant circle. I have just been though one of the truly worst experences in my lifetime and now I am finally healing. Just yesterday I had a myspace conversation with a boy I have known for a while, but we never really got to know each other and I am freaking out. there is no guarantee that this guy is going to be anything with me and yet i can't help but get this fluttery nervous feeling when I think about him and it freaks me out.
I don't think I am ready for this, I still love morgan, more than anything. I don't think I am ready to be over him. I'm scared because if I do ever start to like this guy it will mean I'll have to stop loving morgan and that hurts just about as much as anything.
I don't know what to do, and I know I am being stupid. the decision to be apart was his, I can't change it and its ridiculous to try to hold onto someone who was so willing to let me go.
I'm lost
I don't think I am ready for this, I still love morgan, more than anything. I don't think I am ready to be over him. I'm scared because if I do ever start to like this guy it will mean I'll have to stop loving morgan and that hurts just about as much as anything.
I don't know what to do, and I know I am being stupid. the decision to be apart was his, I can't change it and its ridiculous to try to hold onto someone who was so willing to let me go.
I'm lost