Ranty rant rant Rant!
I keep thinking about Jack leaving to go back to Texas in December and it always feels like a bad dream. I wish he wasn't leaving it makes my tummy feel sick. I start crying everytime we talk about it. I love him so much in a way I have never loved any other boy before. I'd hate to loose that... I know its a good thing for him.. to go back home and not have to worry about financial things like food bills and school.. I mean hell I went home for that same reason. but for me I think it was different I didn't have really anyone who wanted me to stay the way I want him to.
Were both so scared about not being together but I seriously think if we make it through this it will all be worth it and it will mean were truely ment for each other. I'm mostly scared that I'll hurt him, that I'll decide one day that I can't stand being withought him anymore and its way to hard to keep putting ourselfes though this... I don't want to think I am that weak.. I never want to be that weak.. I love him and for him I will be strong.
Goodness today is our six month anniversary and I'm happy because he still loves me more than he ever has. I'm going to make him a special dinner and then were going to Fasinations so I can get him aY present ^.~
I have a lot of errands to run today before tonight though so I guess I better get a move on.
you didn't have to listen to me rant but thanks ^.^
Were both so scared about not being together but I seriously think if we make it through this it will all be worth it and it will mean were truely ment for each other. I'm mostly scared that I'll hurt him, that I'll decide one day that I can't stand being withought him anymore and its way to hard to keep putting ourselfes though this... I don't want to think I am that weak.. I never want to be that weak.. I love him and for him I will be strong.
Goodness today is our six month anniversary and I'm happy because he still loves me more than he ever has. I'm going to make him a special dinner and then were going to Fasinations so I can get him aY present ^.~
I have a lot of errands to run today before tonight though so I guess I better get a move on.
you didn't have to listen to me rant but thanks ^.^