Cation: Lonely Ranting
There is a difference between being alone and being lonely... I am .. Lonely
I just can't help feeling overladed with a sence of dissapointment. I feel so utterly alone all the time. seeing as all my friends are so far away so I am in my house doing nothing all day everyday. I miss my freiends and I miss seeing them everyday.
I feel so alone like theres no once I can just call and out of the blue hang out with. everyone is so busy.
And even this thing with jack is wearing down on me because of the stupidest little things like him saying "i'll call you later" and he dosn't or only coming over and staying for short amounts of time. Or even when he tells me things like I'll hang out with you tomorrow I'll get up early for you tomorrow will be your day and he dosn't even call till 6 when it seems as if he has forgotten everything he told me the previous day cuz now he has to clean his apartment and do a project...
Its hurting me so much... I mean how hard is it to keep your word to someone. and he has the oddasity to say 'I love you' I'm sorry but I don't think thats what love it at all..
I'm probably being really stupid right now but this actually really really hurts my feelings alot and I don't know what to do about it...
and to top it off I feel like crap and would love it if he came over at least to check on me as I have been there for him through his whole sickness with the pink eye thing. I even Brought him 2 cans of soup.. I mean is it to much to ask for the same thing in return.
He did bring me a dozen pink roses last night to make up for making me upset then so maybe I am being increddibully dumb and just overtaken by my lonelyness to notice he dose care and I am just stupid.
Who knows... I know I don't...
Kinda wish I did
I just can't help feeling overladed with a sence of dissapointment. I feel so utterly alone all the time. seeing as all my friends are so far away so I am in my house doing nothing all day everyday. I miss my freiends and I miss seeing them everyday.
I feel so alone like theres no once I can just call and out of the blue hang out with. everyone is so busy.
And even this thing with jack is wearing down on me because of the stupidest little things like him saying "i'll call you later" and he dosn't or only coming over and staying for short amounts of time. Or even when he tells me things like I'll hang out with you tomorrow I'll get up early for you tomorrow will be your day and he dosn't even call till 6 when it seems as if he has forgotten everything he told me the previous day cuz now he has to clean his apartment and do a project...
Its hurting me so much... I mean how hard is it to keep your word to someone. and he has the oddasity to say 'I love you' I'm sorry but I don't think thats what love it at all..
I'm probably being really stupid right now but this actually really really hurts my feelings alot and I don't know what to do about it...
and to top it off I feel like crap and would love it if he came over at least to check on me as I have been there for him through his whole sickness with the pink eye thing. I even Brought him 2 cans of soup.. I mean is it to much to ask for the same thing in return.
He did bring me a dozen pink roses last night to make up for making me upset then so maybe I am being increddibully dumb and just overtaken by my lonelyness to notice he dose care and I am just stupid.
Who knows... I know I don't...
Kinda wish I did