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i miss everyone. this college stuff feels pretty unreal and i'm really scared. i only really like brandeis. what happens if i don't get in? i think i'll cry.
i'm sad. all of my friends are away at college or elsewhere and don't answer my calls. i want to know what ry's doing right now. i wish helena would sing me a song. i wish i could stay up really late with kate talking about life and beyond. i wish wyatt wasn't in maine. i wish i had people from high school that i feel like i can consider friends for life. i feel like the people i do really like from high school are more into other people and less into me. all of them. they all assume that there's another group of people that are hanging out with me. but since they're all assuming that just leaves me alone and sad. i want people to spontaneously call me because just once for a birthday (which wasn't really recognized in the first place) is lame. i hope people will be better in college. i like having friends. but i don't think they like having me.
i'm sad. all of my friends are away at college or elsewhere and don't answer my calls. i want to know what ry's doing right now. i wish helena would sing me a song. i wish i could stay up really late with kate talking about life and beyond. i wish wyatt wasn't in maine. i wish i had people from high school that i feel like i can consider friends for life. i feel like the people i do really like from high school are more into other people and less into me. all of them. they all assume that there's another group of people that are hanging out with me. but since they're all assuming that just leaves me alone and sad. i want people to spontaneously call me because just once for a birthday (which wasn't really recognized in the first place) is lame. i hope people will be better in college. i like having friends. but i don't think they like having me.