Birthday Musings
So its my birthday tomorrow.
I'm not quite sure what to feel. This year has had its good points and its very not good points. I've put in almost a year at my job and I've been sexually harrassed there by six guys, three of which I don't feel comfortable being alone with. I've seen my siblings grow and toddle their ways into forming their own personalities and opinions on things. I've seen a side that I'm not too happy with of family members--beliefs that that hold that I never would have considered them to harbour and it kind of breaks my heart a little bit but I still can't help but love them.
I've written more this year than I every have in the year previous. I particicpated in Rough Trade and it made everything exciting and set me on a set writing schedule. I think for me, it helps to know that someone is watching and waiting for a thing that I'm working on so I think I'll look for an Alpha reader soon. I wrote three stories all in different fandoms but despite loving the HP fandom, writing for it has always made me so nervous. I've been around since I was twelve (aka too young to be on most of these sites) but I found a home and a family here. I found wonderful stories to get lost and found in and all of the writers whether they're still here or not shaped how I've seen and interacted with the world. Writing and reading. It means something and now on the cusp of 11 years in the fandom I'm proud to say that I've been here with you all.
So these are my thoughts on the edge of turning 23. I'd like to believe I've grown into a better adult over the years. I'm still floundering in many aspects but it helps always having someone to turn to. Even a serious of ones and zeroes on a computer screen.
I'm not quite sure what to feel. This year has had its good points and its very not good points. I've put in almost a year at my job and I've been sexually harrassed there by six guys, three of which I don't feel comfortable being alone with. I've seen my siblings grow and toddle their ways into forming their own personalities and opinions on things. I've seen a side that I'm not too happy with of family members--beliefs that that hold that I never would have considered them to harbour and it kind of breaks my heart a little bit but I still can't help but love them.
I've written more this year than I every have in the year previous. I particicpated in Rough Trade and it made everything exciting and set me on a set writing schedule. I think for me, it helps to know that someone is watching and waiting for a thing that I'm working on so I think I'll look for an Alpha reader soon. I wrote three stories all in different fandoms but despite loving the HP fandom, writing for it has always made me so nervous. I've been around since I was twelve (aka too young to be on most of these sites) but I found a home and a family here. I found wonderful stories to get lost and found in and all of the writers whether they're still here or not shaped how I've seen and interacted with the world. Writing and reading. It means something and now on the cusp of 11 years in the fandom I'm proud to say that I've been here with you all.
So these are my thoughts on the edge of turning 23. I'd like to believe I've grown into a better adult over the years. I'm still floundering in many aspects but it helps always having someone to turn to. Even a serious of ones and zeroes on a computer screen.