y is it so hard to be happy
i made the mistake of looking in the mirror . that girl looking back at me . i cant look her in the eye . she looks at me as if shes looking for an answer . but i have nothing to say . shes been crying , as if its new to her . her eyeliner and mascara smeared all around her eyes . her smile is long gone . and her hair is lifeless and dead . skin seems so pale in the mirror . the only colour is the brown in her eyes . i want to tell her this will all be over soon . to stop crying & hurting . but i dont make promises when i cant keep them . so i trun to leave and turn the light off . the light and the girl disappear . i know im gunna see her again and maybe when i do , ill have the answers ....
i just wanna be happy now. i'm sick of waiting for the future. always hoping the next day i'll be happy. i count down months, days, hours, minutes hoping that the next will arrive and i will somehow be happy. i hate living like this. i wish i could just enjoy today and not always look to the next day for happiness.
I've forgotten why I keep trying to stay above water when it's easier to just drown...
i just wanna be happy now. i'm sick of waiting for the future. always hoping the next day i'll be happy. i count down months, days, hours, minutes hoping that the next will arrive and i will somehow be happy. i hate living like this. i wish i could just enjoy today and not always look to the next day for happiness.
I've forgotten why I keep trying to stay above water when it's easier to just drown...