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ergghh. im soo fucking bored. their is nothing to do in this house. and i wanna call jake. but then i dont cuz then he'll want to do something today. and i dont feel like doing anything. well i do. but i dont. lol. i just wanna go sleep. ugh. i disappoint myself. i wanna go outside in the snow with toby. but i dont wanna be cold. and i wanna call someone up and do something, but i wanna be alone. and like i said i wanna go to sleep, but i dont want to waste my day. and i asked my parents about disney ngiht and my dad says he doesnt care. and my moms like idk. but my dad said it depends if its okay w. the olewniczaks if jill can come over w/o them here. idk. i just want to idk. lol. i wanna play Sims2 but im getting the next one for christmas so i dont want to get too into it cuz im just gonna start over when i get the new one. i want christmas to be soon. i want everything right now. really bad. i took my shower already. but i want to take it again. idk why. but i like taking showers lol. i need to get my ring resized. its too big. i have to wear it on my middle finger. my dad yelled at me yesterday for asking if joes going to angermangement. my brother yelled at me yesterday for asking stupid questions. its snowing outside. and its so pretty. and i want to take toby out. but its too cold. i feel like watching lady and the tramp. but my VCR doesnt work upstairs cuz i need a new remote. cuz i got a gay VCR that you have to press power on the vcr and remote. i dont feel loved. i feel hated. i feel like im a bitch. i want to go swimming. i need it. without swimming i get all messed up. next year i want to make it to ecic finals for the 50free. and i want to make it to ecic a's for the 100free and 500free. id be really happy. i want new glasses. the 50version ones that have that cool design on them. i want to go to that 50's diner by my house. i hear it isnt that 50's though and that the foods bad. i want to open a 50's diner when im older. and make the waitresses wear rollerskates. i dont want to be like everyone else. but i end up being it anyways. i cant wait till i get my car. its going to be a neon green stationwagan. and it'll be pimpin. toby likes to play with milk cartons. tori's being really loveable. my mom says its because shes always in the front rroom to be away from toby so we dont give her that much attention. im hungry. but then im not. i wish i was skinny. i never want to buy new clothes. i feel that thats saying im satisified with my weight. and im not. i havent been excersing. and i havent gained anyweight. so that means if i was swimming, i wouldve lost. i dont know. i want to swim so bad. i want to buy a videocamera and tape my summer next year. i want to do stupid things with my friends. but i dont think any of them would want to do the things i planned with me. i wish people didnt care about what people think of them. i love to let loose and not care. i want a hat that has an umbrella attached to it. my dad has one. but its for work that attaches to his helmet. i hate how people mix up plumber with janitor. plumbers dont clean tolits, so stop thinking my dad does. i never climbed a tree. i really want to though. my brother just punched me. for no reason. i think itd be fun to be an old lady. and play bingo. i would get a mohawk. i care too much about things. i have a variety of jobs i would like to work at when im 16. such as an icecream woman. or working at borders. i think you have to be older for that. ill find a way. i think our school would be a lot better if we had a uniform. i think when people say they hate someone, their really just jealous. i want to go see Just Friends. it looks funny. i disappoint myself a lot. i hate it when people dont give other people a chance. i hate it when people make fun of other people. i hate it when people think there better than everybody else.. because usually there not. im not cordinated with things. im shy all the time with the exception of a few people. im a bitch when im shy. its hard for me though. because i cant be myself around random people, because i think im one of those people that you have to get used too. because im werid. and im not weird around people im not friends with... so whenever i try to be myself around people i just met, i seem bitchy and stupid. i know i seem stupid to a lot of people. i like to know everything. not like gossip, but things like why the skys blue.. not that question neccessarily but i ask a lot of questions. most of the time i know theres no answer. hmph. i want footie pajamas. i wish i was rich. my money disappears. i want to be in a straitjacket. i want to have a homeless sleepout at my house in the spring. i want to run around the neighborhood in my ski mask. i wish i knew a lumberjack. i hate how people are against gays. im against abortion. i need a life. and this entry was pointless. im bored.