It finally came out ?.....
Wow I never knew this could happen I finally realized that I am really like my mum in so many ways.Yesterday was fine till I got home.My parents and I got into this huge fight and it sucked so bad. I still feel like we are fighting but we're not? but we are. Special my parents are fighting with each other. Now I have said alot of times that I just want to die well last nite was my night where I did. For the first time I really did cut my self...It was out of anger and pain. What was really weird is I showed my mum when she was yelling at me and she got mad so mad.I ran to go out the door but didnt make it they stopped me my mum made be go to the living with her and talk she thought I might do something like this soon. :( because both her and dad had tried when they were younger. She thought I was stronger but Im not really at all :( We fought till like 2 am.... I have never felt so sad in my life... I didnt go to first period I was all said all day Andrew tried to make me feel better and he did kinda I wish I could have had him just hold me all day but I couldnt..I tried to hide the marks on my arm and I did a pretty good job besides that school was ok. Lunch Britanee and I jumped in the puddles. So lunch was fun math I just kinda slept I guess.. After school went to the farm didnt feel like staying I dont know why just wasnt in the mood came home had a nap Emma "my dog" feel asleep on my chest it was so cute Ilove that dog! Well I guess I better go have to study.Oh I dont think Im going friday and umm Im not sure about saturday most likely sat but not friday and Im not going to that ffa show at the end of the month I have to talk to Brander :( Oh well Love ya guys!
tori~
tori~