What is the point of living if you don't fulfill your dreams?
I can't stop thinking about that. I am so lost in my life. I skipped going to therapy this week, and I had no idea it would have such an effect on me. I dont even feel like rolling out of bed...much less breathing.
my dreams will never come true, and i realized that today. I couldnt stop crying tonight, my little brother (brock) came and laid with me and tried to make me feel better. and he did...alot. I have great friends, but brock diffirent, he makes me feel better...not just for the moment. feel better about life.
So Brocks idea was for me to finsh some of my artwork that ive put aside. I need to buy a new sawdering (sp?) iron to finsh stained glass pieces. maybe ill take some pictures.
Breaking glass + Welding it back together = Stained glass...my love.
I have a huge cig burn on my arm. and its green, doesnt look too heathy.
ON A BETTER NOTE. James made me laugh so hard today. We went to the grocery store and got him a whole bunch of junk food. and he bought me a Peoples magazine. Then we went to his house and listened to music and he napped.
Tomorrow (sunday) Becca is back in town from Stanford, so we are going to go out to lunch. I miss her so much, she is my babe.
I also spoke with Jewels today, she HATES Gonzaga. aww I miss some of my friends so much. Jewels is amazing. She loves Rocky Votolato just as much as i do. She and I love to do make up and hair. Drink and hit on guys. We are partners in crime.
Sorry if some of the pictures are really big....
im so funny...
my hair...3-5inches more till i cut it.
The Blood Brothers
James rockin' out to Dave Matthews- drunk
James took over my cam- drunk
James being nice to my dog?!?! - fo' sho DRUNK
We built this city
puppies with daddy
puppies with daddy