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Have been eating horribly the past three days. Chalking it all up to my birthday. Trying to make myself feel better for the mess I've made myself become. Yesterday spent 10 hours at a sports bar, watching football. Drank nearly 3000 calories or more in beer alone, and ate food I can't even post here. Felt awful. Pregnant. Came home, watched tv for an hour. My body knew I did not want that crap in me any longer. I leaped up from bed, just barely making it before my own body purged to emptiness. Spent another two hours dealing with sitting on the toilet out of pain. Not feeling better, though, knowing that the calories had already been absorbed. Flying to Orlando for two days tomorrow. Court for my DUI from back in May. Scared.. so scared.