i love ........
i held on tightly, waiting for you to realize.... the only thing that you have forgotten. the one and only way that i could have ever gotten so close. and now i stand away from it all and when i was there next to you, i saw the inside....... but now i can see the outside too. and i see how it feels to be in both places. i can not believe how you could've changed and the things you put me throgh. but i kno the real thing. that thing that you no longer kno. i wonder if you sit and think about the truth. {that thing that you can no longer admit} at least i can take the time to realize it every once in a while you kinda remind me of my mother, she always used to live in her perfect little world she could never admit the REAL things around and how ppl really were. she never even remembered the things she put her kinds through and how she treated her mom, husband, and sister. i hope you dont end up that way...... i would hate to see that day. i will love to see the day when all reality hits you right in tha face. maybe you will realise that i was true and just because i made some new friends doesnt mean i will forget the best of all. the one that let me be stuck up her ass no matter what the one that no matter how many friends she had way before me, i was her best and she was mine. i kno that you pry dont care, but if you do read this i hope tht you kno that i will think of you and i hope that you think of me even tho that you wont let anyone see. i love you jan janN << do you remember that? BEST FRIENDS FOREVER << or do you even remember that?!