What i'm tryin to say is that I... love you
So it's been a while since I updated this thing. I apologize to the whole hoarde of 6 people who might actually read my journal. I've been pretty busy lately with work and trying to get all sorts of stuff organized for when Adam and I move into our apartment on April 1. I'm kinda nervous about it, just because i've never really been out on my own. I mean, Cedar Point can kind of count but it only cost me 24 bucks a week to live there, thats nothing.
Anyway, back onto the work subject. I finally went to the Assistant Manager Training class a couple of weeks ago. My boss, Adam, told me that once I came out of the class i'd probably be transferred somewhere else. I didn't believe him but it's happened. I just started at my new store on Friday. I guess i'm going to be a second assistant manager there or something. For anyone who cares it's the Lube Stop on Broadview Road between Sprague and Pleasant Valley. I like my new store and all, but I miss my old one cuz our whole crew got along real well down there. And we all worked well together, but what can you do? Atleast i'm still going to be getting the overtime that I was nervous I might lose.
Now onto the whole relationship dealio in my life. There isn't one right now, and as much as I wish there was i'm also kinda glad there isn't. I mean, it'd be nice to have someone to cuddle up next to and all. But with how much i'm working right now I really don't know that I have enough time for a girlfriend or anything like that. Maybe thats selfish of me to think that way but eh, what can ya do?
This past summer made me realize a whole bunch of things about girls that I never really believed. I don't want to talk bad about anyone or anything like that but the first two relationships I had lasted from when I was 14 till when I was 20. And then, in about 6 months, i've technically dated 4 girls. Thats just not who I am at all. Granted two of the "break ups" were my doing, and one I should've done. I really believed that Alli and myself might have had something good going on at the end of the summer.
I guess that I believed that maybe she used me. Hell maybe she did but i'll never truly know the whole story. I admit that it looks like thats what she did to me but I don't know. Everything was really good between us until she went back home to West Virginia that one week, and then everything changed. I hate trying to convince myself that there's someone out there for me. I'm just worried that maybe i've missed out on that someone. I'm truly worreid that all i've ever wanted or needed is what i've already lost. Whether thats Jen, or Nicole or whoever.
I don't know... I hate trying to figure life out, it's hard enough trying to figure out who I am. I guess i'll just have to take what life deals me no matter what. Hope everyone else is doin well. Thats about it for this post.
Anyway, back onto the work subject. I finally went to the Assistant Manager Training class a couple of weeks ago. My boss, Adam, told me that once I came out of the class i'd probably be transferred somewhere else. I didn't believe him but it's happened. I just started at my new store on Friday. I guess i'm going to be a second assistant manager there or something. For anyone who cares it's the Lube Stop on Broadview Road between Sprague and Pleasant Valley. I like my new store and all, but I miss my old one cuz our whole crew got along real well down there. And we all worked well together, but what can you do? Atleast i'm still going to be getting the overtime that I was nervous I might lose.
Now onto the whole relationship dealio in my life. There isn't one right now, and as much as I wish there was i'm also kinda glad there isn't. I mean, it'd be nice to have someone to cuddle up next to and all. But with how much i'm working right now I really don't know that I have enough time for a girlfriend or anything like that. Maybe thats selfish of me to think that way but eh, what can ya do?
This past summer made me realize a whole bunch of things about girls that I never really believed. I don't want to talk bad about anyone or anything like that but the first two relationships I had lasted from when I was 14 till when I was 20. And then, in about 6 months, i've technically dated 4 girls. Thats just not who I am at all. Granted two of the "break ups" were my doing, and one I should've done. I really believed that Alli and myself might have had something good going on at the end of the summer.
I guess that I believed that maybe she used me. Hell maybe she did but i'll never truly know the whole story. I admit that it looks like thats what she did to me but I don't know. Everything was really good between us until she went back home to West Virginia that one week, and then everything changed. I hate trying to convince myself that there's someone out there for me. I'm just worried that maybe i've missed out on that someone. I'm truly worreid that all i've ever wanted or needed is what i've already lost. Whether thats Jen, or Nicole or whoever.
I don't know... I hate trying to figure life out, it's hard enough trying to figure out who I am. I guess i'll just have to take what life deals me no matter what. Hope everyone else is doin well. Thats about it for this post.