I keep writing letters I'll never send
Maybe it's because I spent the first 6 years of my life in front of a TV, but whenever I have something heavy on my mind that I need to say, it never comes out right. So I write it down, in a letter so that maybe I'll shove it into her hand and run off before she has time to look at me. I write it down so that when the moment comes, maybe my words won't get so garbled in my emotions and I can really say what I feel. I'll write it, read over it a couple times and even fold it up with a sticker when it's done.
Because these letters are always written when I'm at my absolute worst, at the lowest dip in the roller coaster of liiiife, I've taken up the practice of sleeping on a letter. Many times, I've said something in the heat of the moment that I'd regret later. This is why they almost never get sent.
Sleep is amazing. No matter how bad things are, it always looks better in the morning. It's like a reset button. Sleeping on it allows me to look at things rationally, so I don't get swept up my emotions as much. So the next morning, I'll look over what I've written, and 90% of the time, I'll just scrap it. Well, not scrap it, but I'll keep it with me.
I look over the last letter I wrote. It's all distraught and confused. Though it outlined my feelings perfectly, I decided not to send it. What's the point of saying something when I know it won't change a thing? I could make this big dramatic speech of it, but in the end it won't get me what I want. If anything, it'll just get me a few more awkward moments. So I'll quietly fold it up, put it away and just get on with life.
The act of writing the letter itself can be quite cathartic. Maybe it never made it to the recipient, but maybe it didn't have to. Things always look better in the morning.
What do you guys think?
Because these letters are always written when I'm at my absolute worst, at the lowest dip in the roller coaster of liiiife, I've taken up the practice of sleeping on a letter. Many times, I've said something in the heat of the moment that I'd regret later. This is why they almost never get sent.
Sleep is amazing. No matter how bad things are, it always looks better in the morning. It's like a reset button. Sleeping on it allows me to look at things rationally, so I don't get swept up my emotions as much. So the next morning, I'll look over what I've written, and 90% of the time, I'll just scrap it. Well, not scrap it, but I'll keep it with me.
I look over the last letter I wrote. It's all distraught and confused. Though it outlined my feelings perfectly, I decided not to send it. What's the point of saying something when I know it won't change a thing? I could make this big dramatic speech of it, but in the end it won't get me what I want. If anything, it'll just get me a few more awkward moments. So I'll quietly fold it up, put it away and just get on with life.
The act of writing the letter itself can be quite cathartic. Maybe it never made it to the recipient, but maybe it didn't have to. Things always look better in the morning.
What do you guys think?