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i wish i still had hair.
mike asked me to homecoming. (!!!!) but i cant go because my stupid brother came home drunk two nights in a row, so now my parents are being uber protective. fucking gay as hell. but i think im going to danielles, and seeing her off to homecoming because shes going with eric, and then going to hannahs and having anti-homecoming with aj and mike. arent we cute?
ians party was last night. uber fun. it was crazy. haha marian is SO COOL! i have a new friend. i <3 her.
i dislike boys. and aj says im gonna explode but i guess i'll just type here. okay. i havent really thought about nick like a boyfriend in a while, and all of a sudden he said he likes me again. which was a suprise. me and mike have been getting close, but i dont know whats going to happen. so nick eventually told me that hes in love with me. which was an even bigger suprise, because i think only two other people told me they loved me and i thought they meant it, of course those two people eventually abandoned me so i love you is a big deal to me. well i had to tell nick i dont want to be his girlfriend. and i just wanted to be honest. i cant think of one girl that nick dated that hes still friends with, and knowing me i would date him for a week and then be so completely scared of commitment and dump him. resultying in him hating me, and emily ending up lonely. i also found out another extremely close friend of mine likes him. and i felt so bad that i prevented something from happening. so nick if your reading this, im so sorry to hurt you. and i think that in the long run this will keep us closer together. im sorry. <3
i talked to mike lobosco. hes so cool. and funny. he has add i swear.
today was my last official soccer game with my team. and im gonna miss you girls so much. we still have the tournament and then im done. i move up an age group in the spring. which i guess will be fun. xo
oh AND i saw johnny steidler at my game. haha. hes so cool. i dont think he realized who i was until i waved to him. haha i <3 him.
well i must go get ready for anti-homecoming. scoore.
oh and my previous entry was a something corporate song which everyone should download. its called watch the sky. its the best.
xo