Update
So, here's an update on how things have been going since my last post. I finally, finally talked to Misty Monday night. Never really got an explination as to why she didn't bother answering any of my messeges or anything. It was actually more of her telling me that she doesn't want me to worry about her, that she promised me that she would be ok. I tried to tell her that I wouldn't worry if I didn't care. I want to be her friend, I want to be there for her. So she says she wants to figure out her life on her own, doesn't want to have to rely on anyone for it. She told me that she doesn't deserve to be cared about by someone like me. That she's an ass and just hurts people and runs away. I don't get it. I don't want her to solely rely on me to figure out her life, I can't figure things out for her, I have to run my life; but I want to be there as a support. I hate it when people think they don't deserve to be cared about. Everyone deserves at least one person who cares. It just really bothers me. She kept telling me that she's worthless and no good and doesn't deserve someone like me. I hate that. I hate it because I've felt that way about myself, and I know how painful it is, but I know how much better it is when you let people in and have support and people who really care. It just frustrates me so much when I want or try to help someone and they just push me away and don't want it. It's soooo frustrating. I've totally lost my train of thought now. Been up for 20 hours and I'm beat.