character whatever thing part 2
In which I tl;dr and say more useless things. I should stop being sick.
HAHA oh god, okay.
Ayumu and Maka's first meeting was definitely the most awkward, in Ayumu's point of view. He was playing the piano in church by himself, and that was something that he usually did at home-- play by himself. He never really let anyone hear him play whenever he practised, because all he would ever get would be criticisms and he would be compared to his brother. Even if no one knew about him on the island though, or knew of his brother, he still didn't want to be heard playing the piano. If no one would judge him for it, he'd do it himself.
And Maka wasn't so graceful with her listening either. Her footsteps were loud because of her fat feet and cut Ayumu short with his playing. Normally though, he would have stopped playing right then and there. He continued playing though, because he had a feeling that Maka wasn't that knowledgeable about the piano, its music and its theories just by observing her. Then came more pessimism. He didn't exactly care if Maka was feeling uncomfortable or not because of how he was acting, even though they just met. Ayumu had honestly thought that that was going to be the end of it, because really, if you show to someone how much of a huge ball of depression you are, no one would... really want to approach you. That's how it worked in school, with his classmates and all. Why couldn't it have worked on Maka?
Because she's a stalker!!! (I mean,what)
But g;kljsd that aside, the event with the memory thing?? Definitely do not want. Ayumu wasn't fond of people knowing things that don't come directly from the source, kind of like what happened with the event. He didn't really pay any attention to what he saw when he got into contact with Maka because he doesn't really like to pry. People will tell him things if they think he should know. If it's something that he feels he should be involved with, then that's the time that he'll pry. But when it comes to people's backstories, aahh, no, not interested. He thinks that it should be the same with other people too (but what is listening to Ayumu). What Maka saw were pretty "okaaay" memories though, so Ayumu didn't lose much of his dignity, but he still found it annoying that she saw bits of his memories without his permission. They decided not to talk about that though so... no talking about that! <-- this is the event that started the whole stalker thing though, so just putting that there!! :D!!
He's gotten used to people not leaving him alone (Hiyono!! Hizumi! this stupid manga why) so he doesn't really care if people like Maka follow him around or not. He likes the company of people, but will he ever admit that? Ha ha ha. No. And since Maka isn't as wild as Hiyono or Hizumi, he thinks she's actually pretty okay to be around with. By spending a lot of time with each other though, augh, god, Ayumu more or less told her almost his entire life. Maka is definitely not someone he would go to if he was in trouble or anything, since she acts more of a mother than someone who can listen to him like Kazuha and all that, but she is someone who he can go to whenever he just wants to rant about something because he knows her input will bring up a better conversation and gd;kslj that's seriously all he really needs.
He thinks of Maka as some little kid acting like a grown up. He's mentioned it a bunch of times before, that Maka's mature, sometimes a bit too mature. He doesn't really think of it as a bad thing though, but he considers it a bad thing when she slips up and acts like a kid. There is no consistency and dksohj WHAT A BRAT. REALLY. She gets annoyed easily, which has its pros and cons! He can pick on her as much as she wants and get laughs out of it without really making a lot of effort. Sometimes though, it's not so fun anymore since she seriously gets mad instead of just hitting him on the head with a book. He knows he's projected himself a lot on her already, and trusts that she knows when he's joking and when he's not. And she should definitely take jokes lightly, and that's what Ayumu doesn't like about her personality. He believes that he's never gone that far to merit "real" anger (and if he did he will... never say sorry fl;dksjg) so if she ever got seriously mad at him (like in that exploring thread), then it's her fault and not his.
And now, this is where I compare a person to another!!
The way Ayumu is with Hiyono is totally different from how he is with Maka even though they spend as much time with each other the same way that Ayumu and Hiyono do back in their world. Sure, he teases her a lot and does things with her a lot but it's not really enough for Ayumu to trust her. AAHH this is confusing, but aahhh when it comes to friendship, Hiyono will definitely get the 1Up. Ayumu and Hiyono knew each other for just about a year too, but Ayumu would jump off a building just to save her. The same can't be said for Maka, though, because... well, this is Ayumu and he is incredibly wary of being attached to people now. He's said it a lot of times-- he trusts no one.
Where am I getting at, exactly? WELL, Ayumu will definitely, definitely push Maka away at some point, if he thinks that he's become to attached to her already. When he found out that Hiyono was just a character created by Kiyotaka, he told his brother that he thought that he was going to go insane when he found out. He always thought of Hiyono as a sign of hope in the series, and she's the reason why Ayumu kept on fighting and living another day (cheesy). Then he found out that all of that was just a lie, so that was really kinda stupid. And since this is canon-updated Ayumu, he will definitely, definitely be in less of a mood to get close to anyone, even if it's Maka.
Ayumu thinks that how they are is fine already, and it doesn't need changing. He's only able to face Maka because he believes that she believes in him (TENGEN TOPPA MAKA LAGANN except she has no boobs but) and that's something he considers to be enough so he can move on with his life. He knows he's said so many things already about himself and his world, and the most important would probably be the thing with him being a clone and the genetic complications. He can joke about dying so easily because he's lost everything important to him already (ie Hiyono). Everything else that's just happening to him right now are just things he considers bullshit since he's just waiting for the day his body goes berserk on him and stops working. He also knows that this is the island, and it isn't the least bit real. What's real is the world with the Blade Children and the world that he saved through his sacrifices. This is just me reiterating the fact that he will not get attached to people on the island because they will just be taken away from him.
So while canon-updating him means he has more feelings? Yeaaahh.
Basically, whatever it is that he'll be doing here will just be for the sake of the other person and not for himself. LIKE THAT WISH. Most especially that wish, aahhh. Ayumu was able to be selfish for a day, so he went to another island with Maka. He wasn't going to let that whole thing just pass though because, well, it was something different from their usual interactions. He figured he'd return the favour by giving Maka a wish. Anything she wants, he'll grant it. So durr, that was it and Duski we must do that thread soon +_+
Also, I can never imagine Ayumu in a relationship that isn't one-sided fds;akljg hahahaha (Madoka lol, Kyrie LOL, Hiyono LOLOL). He is so awkward in situations like that ahahahahaha it might be fun to think about but gld;sgks hahahahahhaha lol
He does not like older girls that much anymore...! Just wanted to point that out gds9a0gs
Tl;dr: Maka is a person Ayumu considers important (he wouldn't have hugged her if he didn't) and is probably one of the reasons he can get up in the morning but is very tsun tsun about it.
GOD look at how much I write when I am in a bad mood FFS but yes done most of that didn't even make sense I AM SO, SO SORRY
HAHA oh god, okay.
Ayumu and Maka's first meeting was definitely the most awkward, in Ayumu's point of view. He was playing the piano in church by himself, and that was something that he usually did at home-- play by himself. He never really let anyone hear him play whenever he practised, because all he would ever get would be criticisms and he would be compared to his brother. Even if no one knew about him on the island though, or knew of his brother, he still didn't want to be heard playing the piano. If no one would judge him for it, he'd do it himself.
And Maka wasn't so graceful with her listening either. Her footsteps were loud because of her fat feet and cut Ayumu short with his playing. Normally though, he would have stopped playing right then and there. He continued playing though, because he had a feeling that Maka wasn't that knowledgeable about the piano, its music and its theories just by observing her. Then came more pessimism. He didn't exactly care if Maka was feeling uncomfortable or not because of how he was acting, even though they just met. Ayumu had honestly thought that that was going to be the end of it, because really, if you show to someone how much of a huge ball of depression you are, no one would... really want to approach you. That's how it worked in school, with his classmates and all. Why couldn't it have worked on Maka?
Because she's a stalker!!! (I mean,what)
But g;kljsd that aside, the event with the memory thing?? Definitely do not want. Ayumu wasn't fond of people knowing things that don't come directly from the source, kind of like what happened with the event. He didn't really pay any attention to what he saw when he got into contact with Maka because he doesn't really like to pry. People will tell him things if they think he should know. If it's something that he feels he should be involved with, then that's the time that he'll pry. But when it comes to people's backstories, aahh, no, not interested. He thinks that it should be the same with other people too (but what is listening to Ayumu). What Maka saw were pretty "okaaay" memories though, so Ayumu didn't lose much of his dignity, but he still found it annoying that she saw bits of his memories without his permission. They decided not to talk about that though so... no talking about that! <-- this is the event that started the whole stalker thing though, so just putting that there!! :D!!
He's gotten used to people not leaving him alone (Hiyono!! Hizumi! this stupid manga why) so he doesn't really care if people like Maka follow him around or not. He likes the company of people, but will he ever admit that? Ha ha ha. No. And since Maka isn't as wild as Hiyono or Hizumi, he thinks she's actually pretty okay to be around with. By spending a lot of time with each other though, augh, god, Ayumu more or less told her almost his entire life. Maka is definitely not someone he would go to if he was in trouble or anything, since she acts more of a mother than someone who can listen to him like Kazuha and all that, but she is someone who he can go to whenever he just wants to rant about something because he knows her input will bring up a better conversation and gd;kslj that's seriously all he really needs.
He thinks of Maka as some little kid acting like a grown up. He's mentioned it a bunch of times before, that Maka's mature, sometimes a bit too mature. He doesn't really think of it as a bad thing though, but he considers it a bad thing when she slips up and acts like a kid. There is no consistency and dksohj WHAT A BRAT. REALLY. She gets annoyed easily, which has its pros and cons! He can pick on her as much as she wants and get laughs out of it without really making a lot of effort. Sometimes though, it's not so fun anymore since she seriously gets mad instead of just hitting him on the head with a book. He knows he's projected himself a lot on her already, and trusts that she knows when he's joking and when he's not. And she should definitely take jokes lightly, and that's what Ayumu doesn't like about her personality. He believes that he's never gone that far to merit "real" anger (and if he did he will... never say sorry fl;dksjg) so if she ever got seriously mad at him (like in that exploring thread), then it's her fault and not his.
And now, this is where I compare a person to another!!
The way Ayumu is with Hiyono is totally different from how he is with Maka even though they spend as much time with each other the same way that Ayumu and Hiyono do back in their world. Sure, he teases her a lot and does things with her a lot but it's not really enough for Ayumu to trust her. AAHH this is confusing, but aahhh when it comes to friendship, Hiyono will definitely get the 1Up. Ayumu and Hiyono knew each other for just about a year too, but Ayumu would jump off a building just to save her. The same can't be said for Maka, though, because... well, this is Ayumu and he is incredibly wary of being attached to people now. He's said it a lot of times-- he trusts no one.
Where am I getting at, exactly? WELL, Ayumu will definitely, definitely push Maka away at some point, if he thinks that he's become to attached to her already. When he found out that Hiyono was just a character created by Kiyotaka, he told his brother that he thought that he was going to go insane when he found out. He always thought of Hiyono as a sign of hope in the series, and she's the reason why Ayumu kept on fighting and living another day (cheesy). Then he found out that all of that was just a lie, so that was really kinda stupid. And since this is canon-updated Ayumu, he will definitely, definitely be in less of a mood to get close to anyone, even if it's Maka.
Ayumu thinks that how they are is fine already, and it doesn't need changing. He's only able to face Maka because he believes that she believes in him (TENGEN TOPPA MAKA LAGANN except she has no boobs but) and that's something he considers to be enough so he can move on with his life. He knows he's said so many things already about himself and his world, and the most important would probably be the thing with him being a clone and the genetic complications. He can joke about dying so easily because he's lost everything important to him already (ie Hiyono). Everything else that's just happening to him right now are just things he considers bullshit since he's just waiting for the day his body goes berserk on him and stops working. He also knows that this is the island, and it isn't the least bit real. What's real is the world with the Blade Children and the world that he saved through his sacrifices. This is just me reiterating the fact that he will not get attached to people on the island because they will just be taken away from him.
So while canon-updating him means he has more feelings? Yeaaahh.
Basically, whatever it is that he'll be doing here will just be for the sake of the other person and not for himself. LIKE THAT WISH. Most especially that wish, aahhh. Ayumu was able to be selfish for a day, so he went to another island with Maka. He wasn't going to let that whole thing just pass though because, well, it was something different from their usual interactions. He figured he'd return the favour by giving Maka a wish. Anything she wants, he'll grant it. So durr, that was it and Duski we must do that thread soon +_+
Also, I can never imagine Ayumu in a relationship that isn't one-sided fds;akljg hahahaha (Madoka lol, Kyrie LOL, Hiyono LOLOL). He is so awkward in situations like that ahahahahaha it might be fun to think about but gld;sgks hahahahahhaha lol
He does not like older girls that much anymore...! Just wanted to point that out gds9a0gs
Tl;dr: Maka is a person Ayumu considers important (he wouldn't have hugged her if he didn't) and is probably one of the reasons he can get up in the morning but is very tsun tsun about it.
GOD look at how much I write when I am in a bad mood FFS but yes done most of that didn't even make sense I AM SO, SO SORRY