HOLD MY ____

Feb 09, 2006 23:07

When i was told crooms was a magnet school i didn't realize it was a magnet for Weird kids, no life, and random gay shit.

All of the retardedness at crooms isn't going to prepare me for college. HA! ill be so lost ill have no clue what to do.

So what am i going to do? Go to seminole? i wouldn't be able to handle the drama, backstabbing, lying, cheating, bullshit, etc. I dont want to leave friends that i've hung out with for 2 years, although i feel as if i dont know anyone at crooms at all. I dont hang out with anyone, i dont do anything fun, i work, i eat, i sleep, i do homework, i get on the internet and post random shit.

My highschool years have gone by faster than i ever thought possible. Girls are weird. Im the "good friend" type of guy. Im Dr. Mangus, come to me with your problems, talk to me...whatever. Yay im a good communicator. Unfourtuanatley, im obviously not boygfriend material. Oh i hang out with plenty of cool girls...at X level...but any girls at X+1 level? No way.

Pity? i dont want pity, i dont know what i want, im selfish, inconsiderate, confused, too short, to skinny, too immature, too mature, too dumb, too smart, i dont drink or smoke, im looking for something to fill the hole. God forbid i turn to other things to try and fill it for me.

This culture blows. Its either one extreme or the other. Party animal, drinker, no morals, life is a party. or a nerd. Im in the middle i think. And i cant choose. I dont want to choose either. Everyone seems to have their own agenda and if your in the way...then well they'll just run right over you. Oh you tried? sorry. too bad. Oh you dont have the same beliefs as me? Oh too bad your wrong. Oh you like me? too bad. No one cares. Ok fuck you...im sensitive...hey ill be the first one to admit it.

I guess there is a fine line between genius and crazy
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