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Im feeling like i should just say that im not in a x-mas mood, i dis like my job, i hate bills, and if things continue this way i may want to just get up and go. I dont know were id go but simply put i just dont want to be bogged down. All that aside i hate my job, loath is more appopriate. I want to do something with a meaning. i had set a dead line for getting certiant objectives in my life completed it looks like i might not get any of them done. If alls life has intended for me is paying bills and working at a job i hate i can do without life. its not that money will solve all my problems but i just hate having people tell me that i owe them this much and that much, its just in hate the path the world follows, every one has a place and chances are it doesnt matter if your there or not, its just something to waste your time, and exchange irraplacable moments of your life with peices of paper. i have no friends were i am here, who can help make me get on track. honestly ive been here in a static state, not advancing, not progressing, and not feeling anything other then the sense that life is passing me by.