interesting....
hello.. so yea.. interesting few days... i've learned some stuff about people i care about.. also i've missed one person in particular.. but i don't even know if that person cares... well it is a long story that i dont' feel right putting here... also .. i learned some stuff about what my friends are going through and it seems to be tough.. i hope it all works out... i know that what is ment to be will be and i'm just trying to put more of my faith in it... which i definetly should.. well b/c i'm me.. and i normaly don't have faith in much... i do wish and hope that some things were diffrent.. i wish that i wasn't at a point in my life where i'm kinda stuck... i see people all around me that are doing what they want to.. having fun.. being happy... i wish i could find what made me the most happy... now now.. you know that hanging out with my friends is always my fav pass time.. i'mjust talking about that one special happy ... that you get from doing the one thing that you can't live without.. no it doesn't HAVE to be in a relationship.. i just mean that special job or that one place... the simple things that make your day all that much better... sure i have a few.. and i love them.. i just with that it wasn't so hard for me to do them or to find more or that one special one.. my life is so odd right now.. i've been going by in a daze... not really awear of what i'm doing but loving every moment of it... i've made some new friends... started some new things inmy life... working more.. *shut up some of you* ... i'm about ready to re-do my room cause courty is moving and stuff.. so i will have less things and i need to clean it anyways... but i know you can't make everything happen the way you want them to.. i dunno how many of you do this.. but you have this idea in your head of something you want to tell someone or do with someone.. and then you play it all out in your head imagining what people say what happens in every step... all the possibilities... and either you never get around to doing any of it.. or when you try it goes a complete diffrent direction.. maybe not the worst ... but nothing is as good as what youmake up in your mind and how you want it to be.. well except ontheos special occations... but yea... i should prob go to sleep... i just hung out with aprille and elise on my front porch for like 2 hours talking .. which was great...but i'm sad b/c aprille is leaving and i wont see her for a few weeks then i wont see her for about 2 months or more.. andyea.. it makes me sad b/c she is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo awsome of a person.. she has never deserved any of the shit that ANYONE has put her through... soem people have hurt her greatly and some just a lil.. but allof the people.. myself if i have hurt her ever.. which i never ment to if i did and i'm sorry .... all of them should be hurt and punished for it b/c she is the greatest person i have ever meet.. she has never done anything harmful to anyone... she would always be so nice even when thoes people were an ass... you know what elise is like her in alot of ways... yet more outspoken.. man i love thoes girls... i know they will do great things in the world.. i just hope the world if ready for them... ok well this time i will go to bed nighty to all and luvs and hugs... ~broccoli