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September 2, 2005
18 years and 8 days after i was born
7 years and 15 days after i moved here
3 years and 362 days after the first day of high school
19 months and 13 days after i got my license
2 months and 10 days after i've graduated from high school
8 days after i turned legal.
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that was the past.
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23 days until i officially become a REAL college student.
i seem to feel very bittersweet about the whole college transition thing. It is indeed nice to have unlimited freedom, to have the greatest dorm food everyday, to meet so many new people and hear new stories. But, ALAS, there's always a price to pay for whatever you are receiving, and the price for this paradise called college values at the loss of a world that we are so used to, the loss of once-unbreakable friendships, the loss of the privilege to be dependent, oh, and of course, the loss of more than $22,000 per year out of my parents' wallet.
so, in conclusion, I'M SCARED I'M SCARED I'M SCARED. I'm scared to death. I'm scared of mean roommates; I'm scared of losing touch with all the wonderful people in my life; I'm scared of the withdrawal symptoms from not seeing people that I'm so used to seeing everyday; I'm scared of turning into a drunken party slut; i'm scared of failing out of the ultra-competitive biochemistry major, but i think mainly, i am scared because...
what if, COLLEGE is not worth it? what if the bad outweighs the good?
BUT, i'm still hopeful. I hope it will be good.
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18 years and 8 days after i was born
7 years and 15 days after i moved here
3 years and 362 days after the first day of high school
19 months and 13 days after i got my license
2 months and 10 days after i've graduated from high school
8 days after i turned legal.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
that was the past.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
23 days until i officially become a REAL college student.
i seem to feel very bittersweet about the whole college transition thing. It is indeed nice to have unlimited freedom, to have the greatest dorm food everyday, to meet so many new people and hear new stories. But, ALAS, there's always a price to pay for whatever you are receiving, and the price for this paradise called college values at the loss of a world that we are so used to, the loss of once-unbreakable friendships, the loss of the privilege to be dependent, oh, and of course, the loss of more than $22,000 per year out of my parents' wallet.
so, in conclusion, I'M SCARED I'M SCARED I'M SCARED. I'm scared to death. I'm scared of mean roommates; I'm scared of losing touch with all the wonderful people in my life; I'm scared of the withdrawal symptoms from not seeing people that I'm so used to seeing everyday; I'm scared of turning into a drunken party slut; i'm scared of failing out of the ultra-competitive biochemistry major, but i think mainly, i am scared because...
what if, COLLEGE is not worth it? what if the bad outweighs the good?
BUT, i'm still hopeful. I hope it will be good.
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